Wednesday, March 26, 2008

To start all over or to just start from where I left off??

Everything in life has a solution. There are solutions because there is a problem. This is the concept on which our dear computers are made. Intially it was made so that prolems of maths and calculations could be solved.
But as the days got complicated and lives tougher the computer became our source for every problem that needed a solution. And internet gave the comp a power that has made possible for us to lead an alternative life on the web.
But unlike that avtaar... we cant log out of our lives and shut it down. Though... we do put our lives on a stand by and then later start off from where we had just left off. But more often than once I really wish that there was a restart button on our lives... so that kahin par bhi hang hoti life... toh restart krake mistake theek kar paati.
But aisa nahin hai na... its often said that life goes round in a full circle... it was three years back... when I was in Banglore... and today I am in Chennai. Life gave me a chance that I grabbed with both my hands and today.. I am mostly satisfied with my life. Chennai... too has given me chance... to redeem back a friend that I had left behind, surprisingly... I havent really thought about him... but at the back of my mind... he was pretty much present. Its not always easy to leave behind friends and then claim them again after a period... but I have gotten a chance after almost three years to claim back this friend... there is a very fine line in our friendship and I really hope and pray that this friendship develops for the better... the comp screen has just loaded after getting off from stand by.... lets hope that I save this friendship and not delete it altogether...
Cheers....

Friday, March 21, 2008

I am in Chennai....

Hey...
I am on a holiday in Chennai... its a welcome break after the gruelling self beating...
I am writing about my trip... on Shayon's Labyrinth... please do read up on the whats in Chennai... and once I am back home... I'll defo try n do a Photoblog for my beloved page...

Cheers...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Internships... Finance... and All that...

Well... my scholarship paper that has been on my mind for so long.. finally got over today. Surprisingly all those frustrations paid off... the exams went off fine...

Btw... things are kinda taking pace.. well.. I have been searching for internships... basically googling the term over and over again... so I landed on this website called Hello Intern. Its a really nice site... providing every student in almost all the fields of their studies with the relevant information on various nationa and international scholarships and ofcourse the various internships programmes that they are offering. And just incase there are a few things that you are not able to figure out... the owner Snehal Nimje is a very helpful fellow... just shoot him a mail and he'll do the rest.

Anyways- since I have been talking about banking sector and finance..lately.. I came to a conclusion.. that its not really a bad field...as in.. even a layman like me... who is weak in maths couls figure the figures out...!! And if you are looking for some tips on investing... please visit the posts I have been writing on Shayon's page.

College has finally started- Its a great feeling to inch closer to the dreams that you are nurturing. This sem has some great subjects...

Rest all.. well... later

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Update:I am Where I was..

Ok.. I am still pretty fucked up as far as that RBI scholarship paper goes... though I guess.. on the emotional front...things might change a lil.. oh that's coz Shayon..has promised me...that he is gonna try n spend more time with now... oh yeah...he is felling much better...actually gotten a clean chit from the doc...

Thank God... for that atleast.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Time flies- I am where I was...!!!


" the only thing that is tailor made by life is trouble- you have stich the happiness,success and desires yourself"


This quote is a direct pickup from the television commercial of Grasim suitings. But well..what the hell.. this is the only ad which puts this fact about life right on your face... that unlike windows life is software that does not come with a troubleshooting feature. But well.. your friends and family pretty much make up for that part.


But not always.


This year is into its third month...and the only thing that gave me an high was Sania my neice... rest all.. is as dull as it can be... I think that how soever superstitous... but this surely seems true that the transition second of the new years night sets the trend for the year that is to come. It was a very frustrating night... not not sexually... but well... emotionally... I was at home.. I was angry...coz everything got spoilt for me... and I thought that I had grown up... there was no party to look fwd to and there was no maid at my place either. So that meant that my transition day/night was spent in the bed under the covers me all cranky n frustrated... more so.. that I could only get to speak to my boyfriend after 1 am (that happens almost every year) somehow I had managed to talk to him in that transition phase in 2006-07, no wonder that we were able to meet thrice last year.. very memorable.


This year- No such start or push has been given to me...or rather- I think that I missed out on something... there is frankly speaking nothing to look forward to this year... I cant even seem to scrounge up internships...forget any one being outside Delhi... I was banking on a certain scholarship paper... that is happening in less than 10 days from now... and I am so fucked up coz...its a banking/finance paper...and I belong to a science background... I dont even knw my budget basics...

That is the career... trend that is going on...


Emotionally...family wise... I dunno..its a mixed bag.... but I know that my frustration about my career plan going all haywire is spoiling stuffs here too... all I can say is that I have become much more angrier..irritable.... and even though we have a amid...she needs to be constantly supervised...that means..even though I am not washing utensils.... I am still washing clothes (coz of the washing machine...she's not keen to learn how to operate it) and warming the food in the microwave...

The only person that I am being very pateint with is Shayon, that is because... we dont get time to fling out our frustrations at each other... we ...well atleast he is keeping very busy. Btw, he is down with chicken pox... all my dear friends who read my blog... wish him best of health... and now... finally his dream of being a proffessional blogger is turning into a reality... he wrote his very first blog for WATblog... and it got published too... that is great news na...


I know life is not fair... that is an old saying... it maybe cliched... but its surely is as applicable as it gets... So here I am where I was... nothing much to look forward to... but still tring to weave... my dreams into the knit of reality in the fabric of life.....