Thursday, June 12, 2008

Directionless....n motionless....

That is life for me... yup...
Maybe I give up too fast..really or maybe dont try hard enough. Either ways...the prospect don't seem so happy... as of now.
The tone is pretty suggestive that I am kinda flustered....actually I am very flustered... It seems that the brand name Shayon's Labyrinth is not working it out.... anyways I cant seem to figure out the complicated widgets on the page...and therefore...all my efforts to blog out...seem to go in vain. I have been getting no comments... and that is not really encouraging me. What with Shayon getting a new job and his job profile discouraging the readers venturing out on the labyrinth. Ok... not directly..but yeah...indirectly. Fuck man... that makes all my efforts go down the dump. Or maybe, the stupid celebs...taking over the web world are drawing more traffic... what with Amitabh Bachchan blogging shit about his co-workers...and now, Lalu Prasad Yadav..is gonna blog too.... management I suppose. Sometimes its really lucky to be lucky... and am hardly that.
Believe it or not... My end Sems for his semester are nowhere insight... the good part is that I dont have internship to join on a committed date... I would have been screwed that ways...(wow, I have really started to look at the brighter sides....!!! Whatever happens...happens for the greater good....!!!)
Yeah... I should be looking at the brighter side... most of the people out there would love to switch places...what with getting up late... watching TV, reading novels... and just lounging around... Ideal life... but like they say...grass is always greener on the other side...the world works that way.
I am not feeling on top of the world... and well... and yeah at some deep level down there... I am kinda jealous about my best friend landing in an internship... and my Bf getting a dream job..even though it doesn't pay big. Now, dont get me wrong...I love em...and I am happy for them... its just that had I known..what direction am gonna take except being lazy I would have been happier...
This whole thing is freaking me out... coz at some level, my parents are gonna freak out too... I am sure even if the grades are up, they don't want a loser for a daughter.
Sorry about the crass crap... somehow... I lose ears around when I need to talk...so am just punishing my beloved page.

Sometimes, I wonder...do movies really reflect life...?? Can we expect a happy ending after all???

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Have faith...!!!

I had started a post earlier....in continuance of the quicksand post... but then apparently I could not finish it...
There are some reasons sometimes that make it possible to have faith...in yourself or on the Almighty or both..well that completely depends on your perspective of a situation. It always comes down to - Your own Perspective... doesn't it... maybe it is difficult for a another to understand your actions....(Maybe that is why we have the word Jusitification in the English dictionary...!!!)
Anyways... things arent really that down you see... the whole thing about you being happy coz your significant other is makes sense ... Shayon has finally joined a job (I dunno what link to use on his name.... Labyrinth or his job, so here are both...!!!) He maybe not earning as much as all his batch mates are... maybe lot lower...but I sure am happy that he at least has JOB SATISFACTION, that is very rare to find.... thanks to his job though... I got promoted to being the sole manager of Labyrinth, so that is not bad... maybe I can conjure posts on law... and help out ppl... interning right from my own house... but that is not what I want to do... I write... www is a huge publishing place... have your own .com to publish your thoughts on... even greater ... but then reputed law journals...they are a league of their own... lawyers...are old ppl....they get famous with the increase in whiteness in their hair... and I know that they are not exactly blog savvy...even if they are comp savvy...

Anyways... another good thing that happened to me was, that I recently got my Fifth Sem result... and trust me...I passed with flying colours.... I was a nervous wreck about my result...but thanks to Vandeep, and his advice of having faith... the experience was not that horrifying.... but then that realization always stays with me.... that what use is this result...which could'nt even counjre up a internship for me...!!! That is the reason that at times I go into rage... especially now...everybody around me is working...some form of summer job... and here am consoling my open wounds that things will change for the good... have faith...!!!

So this is where I am... having faith in what... I still dunno...though I pray everynight... that my faith which is already treading thing grounds...does not completely melts like ice... on the first day of spring....!!!