Saturday, March 31, 2007

Stay Order....Finally light...

The Supreme court the other day passed a stay order on the increase in quota that was being implemented by the Government and the credit of which goes to The Mandal Commission. HRD Minister Arjun Singh is confident that the apex court would come around and accept the said proposal.
But surprisingly, he is not ready to give what the Supreme court is asking for....that is correct stats. Believe it or not- The OBC quota increase that had been proposed was based on stats that were extremely obscure. In a country where the population increases at such a whooping rate.... how can such a thing be implemented with old stats?? Especially when there was so much of bawall over the issue??

It was Diwali and holi for the Youth for Equality... finally as they say- Justice might just be done...

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Clueless....

Ok.. I am wary... and trust me even more clueless than the female who was shown on the T.V... I mean... teenagers are bound to be that... but I am almost two years up my teenage and am still as clueless as to what exactly am I supposed to do at this age... this trsut me is a million dollar question.. and trust me..its not easy answering a million dollar question....

I cant throw in a tantrum because I am supposed to b this big girl.. and when I do things that are meant to be done by big girls I am sushed down because I have not yet reached that stage.... Oh lord... someone help me.... Its just so so not done.... and trust me... its really hard being a teenager....ooopsss even when you are big its really hard... cmon....I am sure more than half of the people out there agree....!!! Whatever.....

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Five teenagers and Me....!!!!

I am sitting in the remotest corner of my room.. because my entire house is experiencing earthquakes... beacuse it so happens that my sister has finally gotten over with her exams... and she along with four of her friends is having a blast in my house... and everybody in my house is remembering the last time they all were here..... and oh my gosh... its a catastrophe happening here.

They are thirteen year olds and have just discovered the joys of being a teenager... finding crushes losing them... and well.. making me relive my teenage.. and all that I have missed in my teenage years.... Hmmm ofcourse I am the obstruction to their secret talks... but I dunno for some reason I am more adored than other siblings of the friends... prolly because I am being more of a friend to my sis....

Last time they were here..... my parents couldnt sleep that night... I was at my friends place and Shayon was due next day in the morning... and Oh my gosh.... I have no clue what is store for me tonight...

I living in a haze as of now.....

Friday, March 16, 2007

Yipeeeee................

Ok now this is exciting news.. it seems that writing articles for newspaper happens to be something that has been happening with me... from calcutta to delhi... wow...its fun... ok ok...before I really make all of you confused lemme just spill the beans... I wrote this article titled Plitical Survival... and well... I sent to a new new paper called Metro Now. It was purely outta fun.. or rather the fact that hey had printed four e mail addresses where we could write in to... so I thought why not give it a shot.. and guess what... it actually got published... n nobody saw it.. though I think that I have advertised alot...atleast I am very happy about it.. and I am cherishing this moment... this lil moment when I finally get my due and a chance at fame... ahem.. now dont you think that I deserved this.....YIPEEEEEEEE......

Mera number kab aayega???

Hmmmm.... ok the ;ast two weeks have been lows of a lifetime for me... hmmm nothing new just that today in the morning I got to know that two people I know happen to have bagged positions in the top 100 of the country in the GATE exam. And a few days back I got to know that one of my friend finally got through MIT, USA.

So God, it seems has been keeping busy answering to the dream calls... n well... I guess that is why I am in line for my chance to come.... so that my dream call can be answered... spring is in the aur.. and time for the dreams to turn into reality... I hope mera number jaldi aaye....

OOPS..... Congrats to the guys I have mentioned above....!!!

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I am Broke.....

Finally the doomsday has arrived... I am broke..left with just about 50 rupees from the salary that i got at the starting of this month... I am pretty worried.. My lifestyle is gonna change all of a sudden and that means being broke all the time, because I have never got any pocket money... I was sustaining on the salary I recieved from my tutions... I am jobless- Though I am yet to recieve about 2000 rupees from my centre as I have not been given my salary for the month of Feburary from my centre.... (I just hope that they dont pinch off that money coz I took a few classes at home...!!!)

Here is hope against all hopen....

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

IVth Sem- Expectations and Reality....

Wow...finally the much awaited fourth semester is on.My history class is going on and sir happens to be talking about the entrance exams that lots of people in my class are gonna take at the end of the Law studies.I am sitting on the front desk and am one of the best student in the class and I have just finished writing these lines.

So what are my expecttaions-Absolutely nothing.... its a 2.5 month long semester thanks to all the postponing that happened with the odd sem exams. The only law subeject that I have this sem is Human Rights. And rest all is the usual art crap. But then this is the last semester that I'll be dealing with this art subjects.

And the reality- Stark and blinding. Its not easy paying back for the wrong decisions that you make in life. And therefore its even harder studying in an obscure college that is backed by one of the very unwanted university.

I just hope that my stark reality does not blind me so much that I cant see where this future is leading me. I have made a decision- That I have to manauver my life to get the best out of it... its not the easiest thing that can one do but then- No gains without any pains.

High time....

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

World wowen with words.....


Man's best friend is a book.... yes after the Dog... or before the Dog that is upto you... since am more fond of book I'll say that my best friend are the books.


The books that show me the world that I have not visited.. and I know that I am not gonna visit... In those books I have romanced the worlds best looking heroes,faught with the villains, killed and gotten scott free.... but above all in those books I have lived the life...that can only be in a book. From the coincidences that are set up by the authors to the fast and furious timings that lead to the most thrilling and amazing dramas.... this is a world which has delicately been wowen by the authors.... its a world where the boundries are different than the stark realities that we stay in.


I know that most of the people who just adore non fiction would scoff at me.. saying that fiction is nothing but runned up imagination put on paper... but I will just say that its only in this fiction that I can live the life of unpredictability. I am no Bill Gates, Bill Clinton or Hillary Clinton... who have had lives that can be put down in a book.


Unfortunately for me, I am just another girl, who keeps on cribbing that life is not fair... ofcourse I do have my highs and lows, but then nothing so drastic that a book can be written about it. My blogs are boring enough....

I shut the doors of reality when I into a book... I become the person.... and so much so that the unfortunate endings are often tasted in my mouth in the form of tears that run down my cheeks. And where the endings are astounding enough.. I keep on thinking... how was that twist added....


In the world wowen with words.... I live... I dream... and its from there that I have learnt that dreams and imagination.... can turn into a reality....

Monday, March 12, 2007

Cramped Spaces...


My dear neck has got a nice cramp and that trust me is not a great experience... after all.. its cramping all my thoughts and also cramping my line of my sight... I cant seem to turn my head around.. even a lil...


BTW, my Sunday gave me this cramp... thanks to the relaxing reading that I was doing... I managed to finish 3/4th of the book.. but now I am dreading the very thought of worsening this cramp of mine... ahem.. enough of my cramped neck I guess... lets get down to that thought provinking thing about cramped spaces...


This phrase is often used in relationships.. u knw the gal n guy telling each other that they are cramping on their space and hence the split.. ok this is where its used the max... and its in this kind of relationship that you can choose to split because the breathing space that you require is been robbed off you.


But what happens when this happens in the relationships that you know you cant walk out of?? I am btw, out of my PMS phase but then really.. .. I just cant get over the fact that my parents can actually rob me off that breathing space... OHKAY... dont freak out... I know this is the third post in a row that I am actually sounding like a depressed maniac.. but if I dont went it out here then where??

I can talk to my boyfriend.. but then I cant get thru him most of the time and then there is always the financial thingy that cramps the talking time..... so about my parents robbing my breathing space.. as per most of the researches.. this is a phase that is inevitable in all the teenagers life because there is a tendency that they want to rebel and that too becuase that irks their parents- Ok.. . I have never been a rebel of sorts... my parents know that I drink..occasionally that too in their presence most of time.. and that too wine(Red) and at max... breezer or Vodka... I have never been too demading- I know when I'll get no as an answer so I dont ask only... and then... hmmm I just dont listen to my mom when she gets on nerves about going cycling.... now that is no hardcore rebellion... and I am no more a teenager. I am 20 years old.. and I hate being so Big.. .. because of the dear Indian cramped mentality... I have no breathing spave beacuse of my parents... Imagine- I am aquantainces with such girls who go out every night partying WITH their parents permission... and then there is me who just waits for cousins..i.e older brothers to come so that they can take me out...clubbing...


So what exactly is wrong with partying...?? Or what is wrong with just freaking out with friends?? man... I just can't get over with the fact that my parents raising an eyebrow over my conduct.. when I have never drunk so much or spend so much that they can question me...


Why cant they just let me...BE... instead of worsening my cramp??

Saturday, March 10, 2007

Free.. at last

You know my dear sister a few days back wrote a post on the dreaded exams... and trust me the poor girl is gonna have worst nighmares in the next class where she is gonna get promoted. I am sure that she knows what I am talking about.... and for rest of you- remember the exams you gave in your school days... and trust me you guys would regret schooling at your time....

Anyways My exams got over finally. I mean normally they are supposed to finish off in like 10 days flat.. but this time they were streched off like a rubberband. I am satisfied with what I did... I hope the dear examiner too is happy with my answers.

And what exactly have I been doing to celebrate my much awaited freedom?? Ahem.... nothing... if grocery shopping is included in doing "Something" then I sure accomplished alot. Actually, the hitch being in college is that at times you sit down and realise that you are so free- NOT THE PARTY FREEDOM... as in there is no inveriable pressure on you to study... unconciously you realise that your parents hard earned money has gone into the devils trampig grounds.. that is the college courtyard... and that if you dont become cacpable of returning that money to your parents- man you'll be feeling so guilty all your life.... so exams or no exams.. you study and dont study at your own risk....

So this is not exactly the taste of freedom that I am or you are lookink for...

By the way... if anybody is interested.. I happen to finish a 150 page book in like two hours.. so that is the feat that I have achieved as of today... and not to forget the grocers shop....hey shayon its the same place where we picked up the juices...

No I am not out of the "Life of my Pie" phase either.. and my parents have started dreading that I am going crazy coz.. all I keep on doing is telling em that I am bored... my dad's suggestion is horse riding.. my mothers...is still the same... go work out.... why dont they tell me to go and party??
(DUMB QUESTION: You need to have company to party...look around there is no one...)

Alright- Day two of freedom cliche is a sunday... and lets see... what happens.. keep tuned in to "Pie of my BORING life..."

Thursday, March 8, 2007

Pie of my Life....


Its almost the end of the "International Women's Day" and I have had a miserable day. Trust me- PMS is the worst phase that a woman can go thru....

Anyways... I am jobless, my exams get over on the 10th and my so called classes start three days later. But then what?? The same ol life- I get up at 7.30 in the morning leave home at 8 and reach college by 9.30, attend classes till 12.30 and then head back home. And if that is not enough I'll come back home to a sister who's exams are on. My best friends exams are on... and there is nothing for me to do. Ofcourse I have an assignment to finish, with 7th April being the deadline. I'll prolly have a college fest too in the same phase... but trust me I am tired of being the one man army... I am nerdy... and they want me to dance in the fest and win the gold medal there too. All of a sudden, I feel that I am leading too normal a life.... till a few months back I was over satisfied with my life... and today that satisfaction has vanished into thin air.. I want to do something different... I want to run away from my house and without carrying any guilt... go on a road trip, a car trip.... any trip.... but the hitch is that I DONT want my Parents haggeling along... I dont want that factore of predictibility anymore..... I know that I say... that if say it too loud then life would do something really exciting... but somehow all those binges of excitement that dear life has thrwon on me happen to have a negative energy oozing out from der... I want some positive adventure...

I want to run away from a life that has become a fight between sleeping the whole day and checking out mails in the hope of getting that one reply from the damned companies that I have applied to... and then there is my dear mother who is so worked up on making me work out.... I know that this is gonna just help me.. look good.. n et all.. but temme whats good, when you do it either alone or with your mom.. who happens to be a master in Yoga and can actually taunt you to death if you cant do it right...!!!


Not only that I am tired of my stupid attitude... I mean.. I making myself believe that everything is just so fine.. and that there are people who lead much more deary lives... and that there are people who are worse than me... that is who lead much more visibly miserable lives.... I have to start believing that I want to change... change the way I lead such monotonous life... and change the way people look at me.... (ook... I dunno about this).


Atleast- Life looks better....if its a lil unpredictible... or is it... damn this is so so.. stupid.....

Celebrating Womanhood....


She is a Daughter, a sister, a wife and finally a mother. These are the roles that she plays in her personal life with a panache.


Outside the house she a career woman who takes decisions with the same confidance that she has when she is cooking food for her family. Pardon for the comparison that I am making.. because even today a woman is often compared with her home bound skills rather than the skills that she exuberates outsides the bounds of her house.She is no more a scared creature stepping out of the house, she is the confidant woman who knows no bounds and for her sky is the limit,even if she is in a sari.


In the 21st century, its the woman who has the capacity to be the best mother and the best business person together. She has the inspiration that comes from within her, she doesnt need idols, she idolises herself in her everyday roles.... making sure that niche of perfection that she is used to, she gets that.


Even if in a minority, India is finally recogonising that women are no objects to be kept inside the kitchen for cooking and in the bedrooms for making babies. She has come of age, and she deserves her due. She is unstoppable.... but then there are egos and then there is a rural India that ceases to recogonise that a girl child is no curse...there is an India, where Sushmita Sen movies are watched with drooling expressions but that would not send their girl to a school.


Its time that- that India too changes. Its time that together we stand to celebrate the Woman, the one who has given you birth, the one who loves you unconditionally..(this could be your girlfriend or wife..).. the only person who can think from the heart and make the right decisions...!!!


Here's saluting to the woman of 21st century......who has finally tasted success and is now the unstoppable....!!!!

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Diheartening.....


It seems that my luck is turning its back towards me... or not.. well... its not for me to decide... but just wait for the results... right??


But c'mon yaar... I have been mailing so much for the interns and all I get is a reply from one lil place that says that they are not taking interns now.... So what do I do now??? Wait for the others to respond.. who dont even have the courtesy to say that they dont want to me... I mean... atleast that pain of anticipation should not be there.


As if that was not enough... my mom is in her bad moods and I have my guy coming to delhi.. and He is coming to my place for the first time and my dear mom is not exactly extactic about... ofcourse she is apprehensive about it.... I mean.. cmon.. she has not exactly met him so much.. and I am a BIG girl and this is a big bad world out der.... only if she knew how much it means to me if she is nice to him and likes him...its gonna help in future you see...!!!


Ok... the only good thing that is happening is that its festive season with holi round the corner and that someone special is gonna be with me this holi... the very first festival that we'll celebrate together... being in each others physical proximity....!!!


I sure hope that things go fine, and that we have amazing memories of this trip....!!!


Someone was so right when he said that in the gravest of the situations... there is always something to smile about...!!!


Amen...!!!!