Thursday, September 25, 2008

I think this is the nth time that I am talking about this. But, apparently destiny, fate and all that stuff just loves to play out their roles when we least expect it.

I know that all this stuff is often mocked at. Its always the karma that builds the destiny that you have. But, then again, what kind of karma decides that you have the right to make your destiny... and at other times destiny will just overpower everything including the karma that you have done.

Its all Relative.

Basically, some people are born with all the luck. And others, well, they happen to struggle all their lives just to be with the ones they love... just to fuilfill the basic dreams that they have. Shayon says that he doesnt know how to console me, The thing is, I dont know how to console him.

Who the fuck said that when you follow your dreams, everything falls in place. It appears that whenever you dream, you are bound to fall on your face so that your dreams get bruised and that you dont dream again.
All I ask is, What is it that you dream off??

I know that, today, I want to start working asap, so that I can support my realtionship and finally lay a foundation for my future with Shayon. The near future all I want is to go to mumbai so that I can be with Shayon. Its been almost a year, since I met him.
All Shayon wants is that his job remains... and that life becomes less complicated... not Just for him, but for both of us.

I pray to the Almighty above, that He should not shake my faith in Him.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

To start over: Makeover

Women rejuvenate either by a trip to the mall,
A bar of Chocolate,
Sex maybe...
But a Makeover certainly makes her feel good.

It changes her image... makes her feel new and above all makes her feel good about being a woman.
Its so strange that at times we forget the value of changinging our looks... changing just the way we are. I was also very very scared of change.

All through my school life and for three years in college, I had Long...reallly long hair. Mum used to take care of my hair till I was in school n then in college, I was taking care of it... but it was streotyping me. That led to the very step in my makeover that started last year... on my last day I decided to get my hair cut. Not short like really short... but short enough to make ppl gasp around me. When I got out of the airport , My mom n sis din recogonise me.... almost disowning me. But gradually people decided that I was looking good. And on sunday I finally got reall funk in my hair...I got it coloured...and cut n styled....

And I am feeling very very good about the whole thing... makes me feel like a new person altogether...!!!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Is love doomed...!!!???

I am in a great mood...!!! In the morning today, when I got up, I talked to Shayon... the first thing in the morning... that too, for a nice long time minus any interruption...!!! That is why I have this silly smile on my face right now.

Last night, I finished reading this book, called , 'A message in the Bottle' by Nicholas Sparks. And OMG.... I think with every book that I read of his, I am becoming more of his fan. This time the book with dealt with two people who got doomed in love, the heroine, got divorced and the hero lost his wife in an accident. Its been over three years and they both are dealing with their loss in their own way living miles apart. On one forced vacation, that the heroine takes, she comes across a bottle that contains a message in the bottle. That letter is by the hero to his dead wife.... his feelings put in words. That one message and circumstances later force our heroine to find the hero... and when they finally meet sparks fly... but they both live miles apart and thus comes the distance is a problem... he asks her to move to where he lives... but she cant... the reason that he wanted her there was coz he was still not over his late wife...and whenever he was ready to move on... his guilt for his late wife was not letting him move forward... and the ending was sad. (For details- read the book..!!!)

As usual, I was crying by the end.

But, that really made me sit and think... I may have not read many, but whatever love stories that really really touches your heart leaves you in tears. It gives you a heart ache... and while you are reading that book, your faith in love gets reiterated and when you reach the end... you end up thinking... why?
Why would destiny be so cruel... and why would it be so unfair to two people who are in love..... !!! I always end up getting angry at the author... cursing him for being so cruel... If love is so doomed... then why love at all..... or maybe that is the reason that shallow relationships exists...!!!

But I still believe in love, its an emotions that brings the best out in you...!!! And makes even a grouch smile alot...!!!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

What happens?-II

Well... the last post was the jist of all the frustration that I have.
Its not fair.
And I have said this maybe oblong number of times, but then this is the truth.

Its a fact. And the fact is that when things dont go your way, you say that life is not fair. I am sure, life must be rolling its eyes and saying... oh gosh that is not done...!!!

I am a great law firm. Atleast the mumbai counterpart is supposed to be great. But, then there is hardly any work to do. Its just my luck that thanks to a fellow intern both of us have landed ourselves into a great project and as soon as we wind that up, we are gone.

But its the people. Its the sheltered life that I have been leading which did not let me see and make out the real complications and complexes that people have. I am not coming in any one's way and if I follow the office norms and ask the boss for half day off then, I get to hear that I am an miserly intern and that he doesn't care.

My birthday is coming up, reading the ol blogs I see that there has been an element of satisfaction that is there but this time I am feeling very bad. Because of Several reasons ofcourse... My parents went awat to Luckhnow coz of a stupid client and his stupid son getting married. Priorities have changed. My birthday comes every year, but the engagement doesnt. Client is important.

When no one is showing excitement about my birthday why should I? or Maybe I should be showing excitement so that people get excited. Aman's Birthday was special so was tyaji's but my birthday my own parents are not going to be here. Very nice na.

One way of looking at it is that Shayon had to go through bad times. I prayed that all his bad time comes to me and he just remains happy. So this maybe the part of the bargain.

What happens?

What happens when all that you have dreamt off, comes true but with consequences and emotions that you din't even know exisited???