Tuesday, February 24, 2009

25 things you did not know about me...

This Tag is really cool...!!!!

You are to write 25 things about yourself... habits, goals...simply about your life.

1. I am a sucker for romance. I just love anything that has to do with love.
2. When I was 10-11 years old, I acted in a small Ad film which was aired on Doordarshan... it was about importance of education to a girl child.... I was the girl child in question...!!! 
3. I have never been able to be a part of any 'group' either in school or college. This concept of being a groupie and all, never really appealed to me I always thought that two out of the six were keeping secrets... I still do.
4. I am not judgemental about people. I believe in first impressions, but they are only as good as the secon...third..or the fourth ones... it might be the same or different.
5. I feel that money is the greatest thing to happen to me. I am very money minded.
6. On the same lines, I am materialistic too.
7. I love to dance. Especially on romantic numbers. 
8. I a marriage freak. I love to attend weddings. 
9. Yup, I am waiting for mine too.
10. The worst thing that anyone can do to me is make me really mad and as a result make me cry.
11. I cry with my eyes closed and in the dark room when no one can see me.
12. I am dying to learn Salsa, Ballet... sufi kathak... and guitar.
13. I hate any form of exercise especially if it involves going to the gym.
14. I have been swimming for almost 15 years. But, I am not a
pro still...!!!
15. I hate when I have to always 'understand'...
16. I love my best friend... Priyam and hate to see her angry.
17. I love to sleep... that is my best hobby ...
18. I want to go on a backpacking trip to Europe with my friends.
19. Given a chance, I would love to re live my school days from KG to 10th Grade.
20. I plan to write an autobiography one day... about myself or Shayon... or maybe our Love Story (The kind you get published n all) one day.
21. I want to go to Greece for my honeymoon.
22. I love chocolate....especially Dairy Milk and Ferro.
23. Hmmm... The Alchemist is like Bible to me...
24. I want to be a BIG corporate Lawyer...
25. I love Shayon more than he does....

Phew... that was a toughie... :)

Monday, February 23, 2009

Making mountain out of molehills...

There was always so much said and done about the physical distance in  a relationship...that I completely forgot that it is so much harder to maintain a relationship when you are in the same city.

I know that I am over reacting. But, I have recently thrown away all my sensibilities in the filthy waters of the Yamuna River. (I took up the FEST JOB...remember?)
But, I just can't help it. I want to spend time with Shayon. But, He has so much of work that we have not really talked in like 3-4 days. There was a time when I was getting a recharge done everyday to call STD. And it has been like God knows... how many days... that I have not used a single Bonus Minute for talking to Shayon.
(The bonus minutes are for 10pm to 8 am usage, and that is the time when we are to talk.... but...)
I have my fest... he has his office... the he has his events on the weekends.... and I have the 'family time' ... ok not that I am not at mistake..... I know, I should try really hard so that I can spend more time with me... but staying with your parents who don't approve of a lot of things.. makes it really hard.
And, when we can spend time together... it means that I can't do anything... can't make plans for going out... or any other socialising... at times it makes me feel that He just doesn't want to make time for things that are important to me. Ofcourse not always... but when it is really important...
But- I can't believe my self.... instead of getting angry... (I do get angry... and then...) I call up... plead... literally plead....

Oh... Man... I am a mess... sorry for this post... Life Sucks...

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Hmmm... oh.. Hi

I am basically very angry at the world.
Especially me.
I have no idea what I have gotten myself into.
Being the coordinator for the college fest is no joke.
I realised that.
BUT- What I din really realise was that people will have start having problems with me, if I ask them...rather beg them to participate... and give reasons like... Sakshi goes to all those nice internships... and when we try to intern...she calls us for the fest. This is the crappiest thing that I have heard...EVER.
I am just dancing around. Literally. A solo. A group Dance...and if that is not enough there are HUMNGUS events that need to be coordinated. UFF.

If that is not enough... then... Shayon and I have not really talked...for like a week.
And... I so so want to be with him. At the end of the day... all I want to do is just go and hug him. And stay like that. But... thanks to the franking schedules... we are hardly getting to talk.

I dunno...what to do...!!! 
I am MAD. I am SAD... :(

Monday, February 16, 2009

Dancer's BLOCK... oops Choreographers' Block...

Please don't fret...
I thought that I must have really gone crazy to actually think like that...
I mean... anyone can dance right?
especially me... who loves to Dance... anywhere...on any freaking song...
But, its seems that I have lost my touch... :(
After so much of deliberations and lots of work.. I was finally able to get the music... (Basically, I needed to edit the song to fit into the requisite given time). But now, I am just not able to come up with the choreography... and it sucks... like really sucks...
This performance on the stage is dedicated to Shayon,(I am dancing on Mere Dholna, Bhoolbhulaiya) even though he has refused outright to come to the performance.

And yeah... for all who are getting confused... I have the annual college fest in this month... and trust me, it just sucks... its no fun you know being the coordinator and talking to juniors and seniors and then getting the crap about... how they do not like my attitude. 
Even though for the past four years I have been the part and parcel of the fest... this time... I just feel like screaming at all the people who are so irritating.
Lack of enthusiasm by more than 85% of students doesn't help either... they do not participate and they just irritate you.

I guess, I am losing it completely...!!! Help...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

I just din know what to title my post... din really want it to be the usual cliched titles...
Today is the valentine's day... and I dunno about anyone else but, from the time that I had my first crush, I had been dying to celebrate the V day...with the kind of enthusiasm that is associated with it... you know the flowers and the gifts.. the Guy...ofcourse...and the date.
I was 12 when I had my first crush.. and a decade later, I had my first Valentine's Day.
And, well, not the dream come true day... but yeah, for a novice, I had a blast.
Apart from being the Valentines Day, its Shayon and My love anniversary... We completed four years today. And what a journey it has been... but today, I am just thankful that I have this relationship. A lot of questions still remain unanswered for all those who have followed our relationship and the ups and downs. But, I guess, call me someone who just believes in love... that I trust Shayon, because I love him. And no relationship is perfect and there are the obstacles...and the doubts... but, if we are not sure about the the person whom we love..these obstacles will always seem like roadblocks... but if you have faith- In yourself, in the one you love and your God... the obstacles will be merely fences, that you need to climb over. Just Have Faith. 
This relationship has taught me... to trust myself again. Above all, I am so so thankful to Shayon for encouraging me to talk to my younger Sister...about us. This has bought me n her, really close despite the 7 year age gap. That doesn't mean that we don't fight. We do. But, they are mere disagreements...or arguments... but not the vengeance.

Yeah, about my day today... a lot of romance... and a Fancy lunch...!!! (No gifts as such.... I ended up making a scrap book for Shayon... I'll put the pics soon...!!!)
There was something really weird that we both noticed in our pictures that I had put up in the scrapbook... since the pictures were a mix of the best over the last four years... we saw that in the last two years, there have been a huge change in us... as in, in our physical appearance.. we have grown up...!!!
Seems weird... but yeah... its true.
Now its time to grow up in the mind too...!!! 

Happy 4 years...to us... Praying that Love only grows... and faith in Love stays intact...!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

This V day..

Lets us all sit and think...
That how important is it to love... not to love the girlfriend or the boyfriend... but to love ones own self and to love all the friends and the family that we have.

The recent attack on the V day and the subsequent protests... by the liberal and the fundamentalist... The whole thing spirit of this day has been lost.
Valentines is all about... LOVE.

And with so much of frustration and anger around, it has become so imperative to realise that Love is becoming a scarce commodity. The relations have become selfish...and there is ulterior motive all around.
There is no peace only war.
Where is the Love??

Somewhere in our Hearts...so lets take that love out tomorrow...!!! And have a safe and happy Valentine's Day...!!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

The world has gone mad...

My Best friend hates my boyfriend.
Two of my other close friends, are in a miserable state.
Love is being opposed by the girl's parents. Thus... you can imagine.

My college is fest is starting soon.
I am the co-ordinator.
Valentines day is coming, and with so much of madness around... I feel like killing people.
I have cried myself to sleep for the last few nights.

The world has gone MAD.

Friday, February 6, 2009

My Mommy- Bestest... or What qualifies her for that Award anyways?

The recent Manglore issue, has been flared up at the various websites... especially the blogosphere, which is seeing alot of posts about the issue.
There is great thread of comments that is on this post. And there is Mrs. Smitha from Karnatka who has been sighted as the Moral police of the Blogospehere... (when did India become like China anyways.. what with Brakha Dutt and NDTV trying to sue another Blogger, for simple critique on madam Dutt....and here I was taught in Law school, that India is a democracy and that everybody has the freedom of speech and expression)

Amongst, all the comments, one thing that is really bothering me is the thing about ' Mom's being role models... when they are wearing Western clothes... or having a casual drink at a Pub'

I just have one more question, what kind of role models do the kind of Moms be, who get beaten up by their husbands everynight... or who after having an argument with their in-laws or husband, end up crying?
Aren't they teaching their kids that-
Its ok to beat up your wife after a hard days work... because- see the male has been out for the whole day and he has to take out his frustration on someone... and that it is ok, if its the wife. 
And that if you are the wife, then, its ok to get beaten up by your husband because- Pati parmeshwar hota hai...

My mom, has hardly worn the traditional grab... rather she is the most comfy in her Pjs, but does that mean, she is a bad role model... actually, she has done a very decent job bringing me up... 
She works... and is a very independent woman... I have learnt from her that it is very important to assert what you feel is right... and that its fucking very important to have a job, so that you can have financial success and Independence. 
I know my older cousins coming up to her so that they can be guided as to how to bring up their kids.

A Mother is a woman- who can bring up the kids well. And, if she is more in touch with recent times, she is able to do that job much better. (Can you imagine bringing up kids without Huggies... gross)... Just because she deserves her time off and wears western clothes.... doesn't make her a Bad role model.

Some people really need to open their eyes to the future and not to the past....!!!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Eyes are the way to look at the soul of a person.
 I am a die hard romantic...
And I know, when I look in Shayon's eyes,
how much he loves me.

Its gonna be 4 years of us being together.
Does anyone have a suggestions as to what should I gift him?