Sunday, January 31, 2010

Alone, in a crowd...

How many of you have felt that?
I feel that soooo many times.

Its always a pleasure to spend time with friends and family. But, then there are times, when you just want to be with one particular person. And be with that person. You may not talk. But, the reassuring presence of that one person can make all the loneliness in the world disappear.
And, then there are times, when you are in a crowd of people, and you feel, like you are the loneliest person in the world.

Life is confusing-
It gives you people you just can't help but love, and then just doesn't give you enough time to spend with those people.

For some people- Who mean the world to me- I Miss you.

'Tauba yeh lamhe,
kat te nahin kyun...
aankhon se meri,
hat te nahin kyun...
darr lagta hai tanha sone mein ji-
Dil toh bacha hai ji...'

Mom's just don't give up do they?

Not that, we kids are any better...but sometimes, it does get on to your nerves.
So, I am short in height. My parents are not that tall either, but yeah whatever. My mother has a habit of pushing things on my face .. something which I detest.

So, instead of listening to her, about- 'Sakshi, please, exercise to grow your height' I just ignored her most of the time. Because, truly speaking, I did not know what really to expect. Plus- to top it all- I am a lazy girl, when it comes to exercising... So, all I used to do was, to please her- I used to do minimal exercise.
Oh and she never stopped at one thing- So, all the experimental suggestions were used upon me. (My sister is much much better.. and taller.)
So in her latest bid to get me just two more inches taller- She is bought some shoe sole kinda thingy, that you have to walk with for 15 mins or some shit like that. It is yet to come, and I will report to you if I actually manage to gain height.

But- Mom is Mom.
So here is the deal:
1. I have to wear the plastic sole twice a day and walk in them for 30 mins EACH time.
doesn't sound so difficult...
2. I have ti get up EARLY every morning to accommodate the 30 mins of walk each day, add to that 20 mins of exercises, EVERY MORNING.
And Lastly-
I have to do some shitty diet control- That means I have to cut down on carbs and fat. That basically means I am royally screwed. Because, this has to happen for 3MONTHS!!!

To top- it- I have my dear mother, who says is going to dance on my head- up, down, left right and center. That irks me the most.
Welcome to DOOM LAND.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

The first good news of the year: Promotion!!

It says that the first day of the New Year sets the tone. From all that has been happening in my life, I did not expect anything positive that would be coming my way.
But then God and Rajiv (my dance instructor) had other plans for me.
And the first good news of the year has finally come my way.

After almost 10 months of working my ass off (literally, with the hip rolls and first turnouts) I have gotten from the Beginner's level to Basic Elementary. I feel really great. And, all thanks to Rajiv, who saw the potential in me finally and promoted me.

Now, I only hope and pray that- The tone that this has set up continue and that it the happiness and the dreams, become a reality- and That- I finally get to taste - Life.


Thursday, January 28, 2010

To say bye...

I hate Good byes. Even though I never really understood why is it even called a Good bye. What is 'good' in a bye.
How can you see someone you love go.
Shayon left, a few hours back, and as I write this post- he is half way home.

Today when I packed him and auto, and kissed him to see him off, I realized, that- I cannot be the super human being that I have been. It was a different ball game altogether when I knew that he was away, and that he could not come. Hell, man, but now that he was here for a whole year- Even though at the end of each date, I felt sad to sit in the stupid auto and come back home, there was always hope, as a matter of fact, I knew that he was right there. At an arms reach (Okay- 20 mins in an auto, but really whatever)...
But, this time when I said bye- I told him not to come back- a simple Bye- takes away a piece of my soul with him... it physically hurts to see him go away, to know that tomorrow morning when I wake up, he won't be there to call and say-
'Sweetheart- I bunked office, lets meet...!!! I'll cook'

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Unity in Diversity?

Disclaimer: These are the sole views of the author. And, in no way are they intended to hurt the feelings of anyone.
Have you ever wondered as to why is it that we such a HUGE parade on 26th of January? And that be it cold, or foggy or whatever- Almost the entire country is wide awake when the 'Chabees Janwary' parade is aired. I think this is one of the very few days that Doordarshan, has TRPs!!!
The reason is simple- The entire world waits for this parade- Because this parade is the 'Show of Strength' to the other nations. It is an exercise of propaganda for country.. yeah we are very humble people, but it is ok to show off sometimes.

61st Year of being a Republic, was also marked by the auspicious release of the Newest, and the most talked about Phir Mile Sur Mera Tumhara... on Youtube, it has been posted as a reply to the Old Video of Mile Sur Mera Tumhara.

And boy oh boy- Has it created some ripples on the blogosphere and on twitter. I must say, that, I thought that I would not give my opinion on this. But then, I saw both the videos, and I couldn't resist the temptation to give my opinion on the same. Actually, thanks to Mr. Bald Guy, I was directed to this post which prompted this post.

Ohkay, the views are going to be biased, for sure... after all I have grown up watching this video. What the heck- I was 7 years old when DD2 was launched... and I had to actually eat extra food to see some decent Television.

So, here goes-
The moment that video comes on air- You feel a sense of tranquility, as sense of being the Indian that you are. The old video, shows the Unity in diversity. It shows it when MithunDa, Jitendra and Amitab Bachchan stand together and sing... the new video unfortunately is simply a show of strength. It just shows, frame after frame- nothing but the actors.... Individually... The poster boys.
Has India, got nothing more to offer than Indian Actors?
The new video opens with A.R. Rehman, and ofcourse we applaud at his achievements and are proud of him, but trust me, not having The Nightingale of the Music industry in the video makes it for a sad watch. Ms. Padokune should've had more sense to wear.... I dunno, lets not comment on the clothes... we should just be talking about the spirit.. which is also missing in the new video. The New video, does not inspire- It just makes me sigh, and feel, 'Yeah India has progressed... but...
The most important aspects of the old video were- That it was the video of the common, the common man... the new video missed that- It totally has nothing to do with the common man- the one which has risen.
The future the children, which made up the flag in the end of the old video... well, the only one I saw in the new one were dancing with the stars.
The thing that irked me most was-
That the video looked a like total propaganda to impress the MNS. Look closely at the video- There is no Delhi Metro, or any mention of the commonwealth or the T20 world cup that we won. You can see the Taj, the Bandra-Worli sea link, and mostly that entire stretch of Mumbai.

The essence of India, missing in the new video. And that is what I think.
If India is nothing but bollywood, and stamp from the Oscars- Then, well, can I say that, I want to be a part of the broader and the new India? The India- That truly is... United, despite the Diversity.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Jab we met...!!!

Exactly 2 months after, Shayon left for Banglore- We met. Today.
The first thing that I want say in this regard is- That- I TOTALLY HATE DELHI FOGS. They suck. And I equally hate our primitive systems on the Airport. They can't do any arrivals or departures even in slight fog conditions. (They are supposed to be equipped with that sorta technology).
So, a 7 am flight that was to land at 9.30 am came in at 2.30 and it took em another half an hour for the freaking baggage claim to come. I was at the airport for 1.5 hours.
We met- actually sat down to eat something and spend 'some' time together- at 4ish, and I put him an auto so that he could go to his friends' house (where he is putting up) at 5.15.
No one can imagine the pain that zagged through me when he was sitting in that auto and leaving. This is the MOST ridiculous time that we have spent together.
I wish that life a lil more easy on me.
Or if nothing- Luck could've favoured us, and the weather God complied... that would have made some little difference in this meeting of ours. Like Shayon put it- It felt like a mere formality.

This is turning out to be a CRAPPY year, thus far. (I know- The sadist me just spoke up.)
I wish.. Oh I wish.

Monday, January 25, 2010

With love from- Across the Border!!!

Sixty Years of being a Republic. Being a nation that has its own laws, and its very own constitution. A culture that is so diverse that, there are nations that look at us and exclaim.. how we manage.

This and the Independence Day are maybe The most hyped holidays in the year. Not only does that give a license to EVERYONE in the country to actually have a holiday- and gives a license to ALL the stores to put up weird sales.. and the Radio stations, Newspapers and Magazines, will chronicle many reasons for us to be proud Indians. I don't want to start up with the whole thing of how, we should really be proud of our legacy and that these two days should be meaningful, and not just holidays on our calendars.
But instead- This year- I have thought that I am going to do something else. I am going to tell a story to all of you. This story is about a man, who has given me THE most precious lessons of my life.
The series is gonna be called "With Love from-Across the border".
I don't know why I decided to write about him, rather tell his story in his own words- But I do know that I want the world to know him...!!! And, this is the BEST place.
So I hope that you all enjoy the series.
The Foreword will come soon.
There is a quiz that is being conducted on a Radio station, called 61 seconds (This is for our Republic Day, the rules are simple- You will be asked question pertaining to India, and you are to answer them in 61 seconds. You have to get Minimum 3 answers correct to win a prize. )
This is the quizzing that I heard in the morning today on the radio.

RJ: Hi, so who is this?
Listener: I am ABC... (its a girl)
RJ: So you are ready...
ABC: Yeah.. I am ready.
RJ: Who takes the salute at the Republic Day parade?
ABC: I dunno (dumb girl, must be in college then min age 17, doesn't even know that the salute is taken by the President of India)
RJ: Who is the cheif guest at this year's parade?
(I agree that, it is not such a significant peice of fact that a teenager should know, but it is a known fact that it is a foreign dignitary)
ABC: Sheila Dixit.. (Ok, I totally love our CM, but PLEASE)
RJ: When does the beating retreat after the parade happens?
ABC: I dunno ( The answer is- 3 days later on 29th January)
RJ: Who is the President of our Country?
ABC: Pratibha Patil (Thank GOD she got this right)
RJ: Who was our former President?
RJ: Who is our PM?
ABC: Manmohan Singh (I would have personally found her and thrashed her if she would have wrongly answered this)
RJ: How many members are there of Rajya sabha?
ABC: 11 (Yeah, sure shows, how much civics does she know)
I was super shocked to hear all this nonsense... newspaper reading should become compulsory. If not the civics book. If you do not know about your own country- whether you like your own country or not, you should be ashamed of yourself.
Ohkay- I am not promising any prizes here... but I have not answered couple of questions in the quiz above. Lets see if any of you know the correct answer.
And here is my question in addition:
(HINT: It is there in today's times of India)
I will announce the result in a separate post, highlighting the answers of the person who has given maximum correct answers. Be true to yourself and try not using google.

Have a great HOLIDAY!!!


Sunday, January 24, 2010

You would have been 23,
an age you were waiting for. I know, nothing in particular- But I am sure that, you would have been all responsible and a working woman. We would have probably boozed all night and laughed like hyenas. It would have been like old times... or would it?

I don't know what life would have been had you still been here. But, from where you are- You can see what life is Now, when you are not here. I have missed you.. and I still miss you. Its your day today, and we used to always supremely happy on this day. It was always a holiday the next day.

So, for you on your Birthday- I wish that you are happy where ever you are. And for me, like a dear friend said- You are watching over me, so, all I am going to promise is- That- I am going to be happy for you and for me.

Happy Birthday- Mini. You know you are terribly missed.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Be the believer... Ki

One thing that we learn since we are kids, is to start weaving dreams. We are always to to dream well, when we go to sleep.

When these dreams become reality, we become believers. We start believing all the good things that can truly happen to us. Sometimes ofcourse, we have to pinch ourselves to make believe the good things that life throws at us.

Not all of us are fortunate enough to get lucky in all the ways that we want.
But then there are some of us, who are lucky enough, to have their dreams turn into reality.

Ki- You are one of the lucky few. You have a very exciting year ahead. And trust me, no one can be more happy than what I am for you. Sweetheart, hold these coming months hard, hold onto all your dreams, with that smile. Embrace your life, with open arms- You truly deserve this happiness.
In midst of all this happiness, never let your belief waver. In anything and everything that you have believed so far.
Just be happy.
You have all my wishes.

I love you.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

The Man who wrote Love: Eric Segal

There is probably no one in this world who has created so much magic out of words, someone who made millions believe in Love.
Even though, he never knew that he had a fan in me, or rather I have never really done anything fannish.. I am his HUGE fan. I totally love his books... all of them.

Eric Segal died on Sunday, at the age of 72. All the skeptics who do not believe in love will probably not give two hoots about him. But, I sure loved that man for the sheer magic that he created out of his books and his words.
Unlike most of the people who know him because of Love Story, I read 'Only Love' first. And Love Story came last.
In all his books, I have felt the compassion of his characters run through me. I have felt the love, the hatred and above all, I felt a part of his books.

His books made me believe that, I will find my Prince Charming and that someday, there would truly be my own 'Happy Ever After' .
And, I pray with all my heart that may his soul rest in peace and that his books keep spreading the message of love all over the world.
In other news- Cadbury is being taken over by Kraft in the U.K. somewhere in between all the business, the true taste of chocolate will be lost. I am going to lose my favourite chocolate also now!!! :(

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Who says that being a capitalist state is helping any body?

Ofcourse, there are competitive prices and loads and loads and loads of choices for clothes, for food and for all that you want. Bloody hell the local grocer has become competitive to the Big Bazaar.

And it is not helping my cause. (Ofcourse anything that, is not helping my cause should be banned for life)
I am anyways confuse as to what to do as far as my career goes. And to add to the woes, I have been given more suggestions. (Again NOT helping my cause)
I had given due thought to a lot of things-
1. I want to do a Masters in Law.
2. But not now. It was to happen after couple of years.
3. The masters was supposed to happen from outside India. (That plan shook up the moment I saw their fee structure)
4. Therefore, I wanted to work for a couple of years and then do my masters from The harvard or the Oxford.

But, no. Life is not easy. (That IS a understatement)
Therefore enter my seniors. They say-
1. You should try and not give a break to your studies.
2. What is the point of going outside India to do an LL.M? Have you seen the fees? You can get much better options here.
3. Acha baba, whats the harm in trying. So, just fill in the application form, give the entrance and then we will see.
4. Haan haan, keep applying for the jobs as well na. If you don't clear your entrances, then, you will have a back up.
And the cherry on the top- You should not worry Sakshi. Ho jayega. Sab ho jata hai.

Since we have decided that we are going to look at the glass half full- The good thing that came out of the whole discussion was- That there is no harm in trying. And that I talked to my dad about this in a jiffy. I told him what my seniors had said and that, I would like to give my entrance if nothing else.
What is the good thing in that you ask?
Well, this is the first time that I have come forward with a decision with regard to My Career. Not dillidalying about it. Something concrete. It did take a few minutes for him to comprehend and process the information...
Me liked that.

So, confusion galore. That is what the story of my life is.
Cold finally caught with me. I have been sneezing like two kilos of black pepper has been stuffed in my nose. So, I am not even thinking too straight.
Love you guys.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Next step is?

My practical exam got over today and I practically got strangled by the external examiner. When I came out of the room, my face was all drawn, and till I got my diet coke and some french fries, I was at my lowest best.

We were all to wear our uniforms- i.e Black pants & white shirt. Being winters, a court was preferred over sweater. I gave an extra touch and added a neck tie. And I was looking really nice... or so I thought)

Next- Sakshi Chopra
Me :Good morning sir.
Buddha Ass (BA) : (looks at my admit, and then looks at me, does that twice.. or maybe more)
Me: (with a small smile) Sir, its me only.
BA: Aapko pata nahin hai ki kis tarah ki photo khichwaate hain(referring it to my perfectly normal passport size photograph- it just had a lil smile and lil lip gloss- and I was totally not looking constipated) you are a professional and not a fashion model.
Me: (totally flabbergasted by now- just nodded)
BA: So what is this? (Picking up my file)
Me: Sir, its my moot court file.
BA: How many cases ?
Me: 3
BA: Did you do less cases then what you were told?
Me: (totally appalled, I am the GOOD student) No sir, I have done all my the cases that were given to me by our HOD.
BA: Did you read your syllabus?
Me: (Thinking- He has totally lost it) Y..yes Sir.
BA: then how many cases are prescribed in it?
Me: (trying to act intelligent) If I am not mistaken 3 only.
BA: Are you sure?
Me: (looking at my palms, thinking hard, and blinking my eyes hard)
BA: What is this drama, you are not allowed to give any expressions. No blinking of eyes or taking out of your tongue.
Me: (by now I am totally sweating in such harsh winters) Yes, sir.
BA: Ok, what do these cases deal with?
Me: Sir, with constitution, Murder i.e criminal and Divorce matter.
BA: What constitution?
Me: sir basically....
BA: Under what article?
Me: (fumbling like a crazy MAD woman) section... oh no Article 29.
BA: really?what have you filed.. a writ?
Me: Yes, sir its a writ petition.
BA: What then?
Me: Under article 32.
BA: acha- article 32 is writs for public interest filed in the supreme court.
Me: yes sir this case is filed in the supreme court.
BA: Have you ever heard of a PIL?
Me: yes sir....
BA: Gupta ji (our HOD, sitting on the table alongside...)inhone PIL kar liya hai...
Me: sir its in the 10th semester
BA: Oh 10th semester....
BA: ohkay tell me the fect of the case.
Me: Sir EFFECT? (yeah that is what I heard)
BA: (Now opening his mouth) FACT of the case..
Me: Sir, society of charwaks...
BA: (again cutting me off) what society, is it a registered society.. a legal society what
Me: Yes, society of charwaks was a registered society.
BA: WAS? A society once registered is always registered, what was.
Me: HUH?
BA: Okay go.

And he threw the file. The ass, did not even open the files that I had made with so much of love care and affection. And when I came out- The other faculty assured me that I will get good marks. But, that feel good factor was not there at all. I felt totally low. He broke me up really nice.
This semester was not particularly all gung ho, though I gave whatever I had. And, I really hope that my percentage doesn't fall off like a broken apple. God, please- Min marks- have to be 300. Second last semester, just let me through minus hiccups. Please.

And now, officially starts the last sem of college. Last few months of college life and then some big decisions have to be made. Some life altering things that are gonna happen.
I am not dreading them, the inevitable was bound to happen. Just mentally preparing myself for it.
The very first thing that is coming up is- My college fest. Its a TOTAL drama, with high emotions and huge ego clashes. A classmate of mine and I, had one on last years' fest and have not spoken to each other since then.
I have to choreograph-
A group dance, a fashion show and my solo performance. Add to that the intellectual stuff of presentations, debate etc, and I am a mad house. I am perfectly sane all around the year and then two weeks before the fest and 5 days of THE fest, and I am insanity personified outside the asylum.
BTW- Suggestions for concept of the Fashion Show and songs for my solo dance performance (Bollywood number with classical beats... the mere dholna types) are MORE than welcome.

And the next thing, maybe the MOST important thing is The Cover Letter. The one that is sitting in my documents is a disaster. I know it. And,I can't seem to come with a bright bulb on my head about how to improve it. :(

I am already getting a feeling about this...not the Black eyed peas one.
On the very personal front- Thanks to google chrome, my dad came across Shayon's Blog and the post on it. I saw it just in time to close that tab for him telling him not read our blogs. (Not a great move) But today doesn't seem to be my day at all.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Run, Run, I got TAGGED!!!

The Bald man tagged me, even though though I tried to run, I was tagged and now I am it.
So, let us begin....

1. What is your current obsession?
To obsess about my Job and my love life.

2. What are you wearing today?
A thick sweatshirt, a T shirt and sweat pant...

3. What’s for dinner?
No idea, the deliberations will begin later in the day.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?

Does recharge on the phone count?

5. What are you listening to right now?
Sounds of 'Slpitsvilla' from the next room.

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
Hmmm, he has the total spirit of running, thus he asks people to run.. (Just Kidding), I think he is a really nice person, with great great sense of humour. And one of the very few people I know who know how to deal with life and his job.

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
Ireland. (I dunno, I am totally fascinated by that place)

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
A black cut sleeve, A white spaghetti, a pair of denim shorts and sunglasses.

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Do you really want me to answer that... Ohkay, Banglore into the arms of my love. (Stop rolling your eyes)

10. Which language do you want to learn?

French. Cliched, but who cares!!! Oh yeah, Latin too!!! :) (I know a lot of legal maxims, but learning the language would be much better)

11. What’s your favourite quote?

Credo quia absurdum- its latin for- I believe because it is absurd.

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
Shayon :P

13. What is your favourite colour?

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
i) A pair of good fitting Jeans and a well fitted top can never go wrong.
ii) Hair is one the biggest asset (sorry Bald man) and the best way to show it off is not putting it in front of your face.
iii) Take a bath. Smell good and look naturally good.

15. What is your dream job?
To be in the United Nation's Judicial body...!!!

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
Readers Digest

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
Hmmmm, that is not a lot of money .I know it is, but why can't you give us Indian currency, the conversion of it to the Indian currency will be too much of pain. I would just keep it and see what to spend it upon when I get to the USA.

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
Trying to fit in by following useless fashionista's

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Huh... maybe all the celebs... Oh I know, that VJ who was doing style check for a couple of months last year, before Anoushka came back.

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
I have no idea, anything that makes me look good, without altering the length too much.

21. What are you going to do after this?
JESUS!! I did not realise that I had skipped this question..!!! :P No, I DO NOT STARE at anybody's butt.

22. What are your favourite movies?

All time fav would be DDLJ... oh and Sholay. ( I am HUGE SRK fan, need I say more)

23. What inspires you?
hmmmm, the inspiration has to come from inside... lemme see, oh ho communication failure. Nothing specific really...

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
Moti bhains...

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?


26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Listen to music, eat... and sleep. What I really wanna do is talk, but that never happens.

27. What makes you go wild?
Anything... particularly good music and a great party. I likes the good times.

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
All the blogs on my reading list. They include- The Footloose Doll, Laughing Medusa... Desi Ghee, Sorcy, Caxor, Ki, Moo, Uncle J, Shalini, Shalink's, Roop, TUIB,Quirky, TWM, Miss M. Yeah that is about it all. If I missed some one, please put it in the comments...!! :P

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
Hot chocolate fudge Sundae @Nirulas, Gulab jamun, Kaju Katli, gajar ka halwa, suji ka halwa, kheer, phirni, panjiri... yeah, I guess that would be all, oh- Yeah CHOCOLATES!!! :)

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
Seven (7)

31. Favorite Season?
Spring.. rather November through March in Mumbai.

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
I can't cook. I'll ask my maid to cook.

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
I am still learning the are of just that. Once I figure out, will let you know.

34. What are you afraid of the most?
One day waking up and not being able to meet my own eyes.

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
I really need to take a bath.

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?

Thinking about the happy times, that have become memories of the past.

37. A word that you say a lot?
Hadd hai...

38. When was the last time you tried telling a joke and failed miserably?

That is the reason why I love to read jokes. Not tell em.

39. What would you do if you were made President of India for one day?

I don't want to be one. The Prez is a useless ornament in the hierarchy of Indian political system.

40. When was the last time you stuck to your New Year resolution?
I am wondering when was the last time, I actually evaluated my so called resolutions??

And I tag-
The Footloose Doll
Madam Cow a.k.a Moo
Ms. Bludeemary a.k.a. Laughing Medusa
Mr. Shayon Pal
Uncle J
Oh Yeah-
and Roop
and Miss M
And anyone else who would like to pick this tag up.

Rules for those who are tagged:
Respond and rework – answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own, and add one more question to the list. Then tag eight or ten other new set of people.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ohkay- Lets Play a COOL game..

Suddenly he'd looked at the clock and said ,"Are there matinées today in the theaters?"

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

The Gene Pool...

No, I am not talking about a pool at Gene Hackman's house. ( Why would I even be interested to talk about... Gene)

You all have heard of genes (NOT JEANS), the one that make us, you know chromosomes etc. Yeah I am talking science, not Hollywood OR fashion.

So, when I was conceived, then, the cells decided to merge in such a way that I more like my mom. You see, I have her features, like, my hair, I always butt long hair like my mum before I got em cut to waist length. I have her height, yeah that means I am lil short in height. I have her temper.
And, my dad gave me most of the intellectual aptitude and the gene's for premature graying of hair.
Can you imagine, my mother still doesn't have to colour her hair, and I have atleast three strands in my hair that stand up like my head is a freaking fort with a flag that needs to be waved. :(
This completely sucks, as if I was not depressed about getting older each year, now I have to deal with gray hair also...!!!
On a more serious note, all those who have seen Paa, do you all remember how Vidya Balan describes Auro's illness, you know about the AT's and the GC's... here is an interesting fact, we all have the same chromosomes, that is the reason why we have two eyes, one nose and basically the same structure, but there is something that is different in EACH of us, yeah, that is why I am what I am and you are what you are.
Even nature knew the importance of the 'difference' that each one of us has. And, whenever I see someone supremely talented on television or otherwise, I sit and wonder, wow, God has gifted him with sooo much of oozing talent, and at the same instant I realise, that I am special too. I am special in my own way. And, even though I am not famous, even though I cannot dance like I pro, or Sing or make music, I have what it takes for people close to me to love me.

And, if you don't love me, oh yeah you are missing out on something, so freaking important in your life, knowing me.

The truth is that, this attitude has started to develop in me. And, it is a great experience to know yourself, to understand how much I can appreciate myself and be happy about it. We are totally living in a world where humility is no where to be found, where being humble about your own abilities mean that you do not know anything.
I learnt this lesson over so many years, and I am learning it till now.
It is not important to be what others want you to be, but it is VERY important to know yourself and to believe in what you are.
This Moral lecture was for my own welfare, but ofcourse you all are most welcome to utilise this advice!!! :P

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Pyaar tera Dilli ki sardi...

I'm standin' on the bridge
I'm waitin' in the dark,
I thought that you'd be here, by now.
Theres nothing but the rain,
no footsteps on the ground,
Im listening, but there's no sound.

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home.

It's a damn cold night,
Tryin' to figure out this life,
Won't you take me by the hand,
Take me somewhere new,
I don't know who you are but I,
I'm with you.
I'm with you.

I'm lookin' for a place,
I'm searchin' for a face,
Is anybody here I know,
Cause' nothin's goin right,
And everything's a mess,
And no one likes to be alone.

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home.

It's a damn cold night,
Tryin' to figure out this life,
Won't you take me by the hand,
Take me somewhere new,
I don't know who you are but I,
I'm with you.
I'm with you.
Ya eah

Oh, why is everything so confusing,
Maybe I'm just out of my mind,
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

It's a damn cold night
Tryin to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I,
I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but
I'm with you
I'm with you

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
Don't know who you are but I,
I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you
Song personifying my life...!!! I though I'd share it with you all..!! Its by Avril Lavigne...

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Shayon wrote a post for Us...

And, I am totally freakily touched.
My stupid boyfriend has a way of giving me a surprise outta the blue.

Guys and gals, check his latest post- And, tell me how lucky am I.

I love you sweetheart...

Friday, January 8, 2010

The mush factor...

Falling in love was one thing that I had anticipated from the time I started understanding hindi movies (I was not allowed to watch English flicks, I still am not, with my parents around) and then came the books, the Fairy tales always had the Prince Charming rescuing the damsel in distress, stuck in the tall tower.
Ofcourse, later I graduated to more mature matter, where there was love, but of a different sort.

And, finally when I did find love (that was after I believed, that I had found 'The One' almost 3 times before) it was completely unexpected. Yeah, I mean, who falls in love with the words first and then the writer... ohkay I think that is what happens actually.

It has not been a fairy tale at all. As a matter of fact, I am mostly distressed coz of him (not that I mind that!) but yeah, it is love. And surprisingly, this was not the fate that I had anticipated for us... I was a cynic and had been in love before, only not to be loved back.

In almost lil over a month- Shayon and I complete five years of being together. And, I have already said this a zillion times before that I can still feel my first kiss right here in my heart. Oh, and as the ritual has it, we will most probably end up having an argument on that day, but then, duhu, that is the way we are.

We have grown to love each other by accepting the different people that we are, and that is what have made us stick together I guess.

You know, what I am really trying to say- is that, it is always great to know that there someone, who cares, beyond all boundaries of how you look, how much you earn, and whether you fart after dinner or not. And it took me 19 years to find that someone.

I love you Sweetheart...

PS: I have no clue, why this post came up.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Trending Topic...

For all of you, who are familiar with twitter I am sure that you all are aware of the 'Trending Topics'... well here is a lil gyan then for you all, these are topics which are mostly talked about in the tweet world.

And in my little world- the Trending topic is- Sakshi ki Shaadi...
And well, really, its not funny anymore... this whole fundu topic me getting married started when I was fourteen (yeah, thank God I belong to a family of advocates), apparently one horror- scope that was valid then said that I will get married at the age of eighteen, so the countdown began that early. And since the day I have turned eighteen, all I have been pulled my leg about is me getting married... LIKE HELLO PEOPLE MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS...!!!

So, the very first day of the Newest year, and Shayon's mom calls me, and she and I talk like really casually about Shayon and I getting married. The best thing being, that her timeline and mine match.. so we start talking 'marriage' on the 1st Jan... this was all in great jest. But the evening was even worse...
Like, my father tells me that this really sweet aunty otherwise, has just ruined my life, by announcing at a wedding that she attended about me being an eligible spinster. Now isn't that cool.... NOT. All my dad is telling me-is, I am just happy that people remember my daughter...hello remember for better things than match making.
Add to that Mr. Bejan Daruwalla in his general horrorscope for 2010 for me tells me that there is if not wedding then an engagement surely on the cards.

Yeah, that is what is going to happen to me the whole freaking year, I'll be warding off my own marriage.

Here is the deal guys, its not that I don't want to get married. As a matter of fact, right now with Shayon so far away, the only thing that seems logical to me so that we don't stay miles apart is getting married... but, then, I have studied so hard for 5 years, I can't just let that go... and neither can I let go of my career goals.
GOD!!! This totally sucks.
My parents don't even know about Shayon. They are going to freak out completely. And... I am so lost that I can't even see my own hands in front of me... the future is that foggy.
PS: How the hell do you tell your parents about your boyfriend without getting killed?