So today is the day. 9 years back on this day, at this
instant as I type this, I was in conflict with my own emotions and I was
wondering, and over and over again that if I will ever find that love, if I
would ever be lucky in love and above all, if my feelings for this boy are true
or just a natural reaction to all the attention that I have been getting from
him.
Today, we are married and even more confused. He tries his
best most of the time to make sure that I am happy dappy, and I act like a
prick always getting mad at him. He of course has his moments, when I am left
speechless. Sometimes in a pleasant way and other times at his being so
ridiculous and careless.
But mostly, we find that common ground that we have been
holding on to for the last 9 long years, where we can feel the love and be the
teenagers that we were, when we fell in love with each other. We have had and
are still facing the troubles that there are in our daily lives. On certain
days, I feel like I have bitten more than I can chew and on the other times I
feel that, my appetite is still not full.
Whatever the troubles for me, for us in the world, at least
for me, the moment, I am in his arms, the solutions seem at an arms length. The
impossible may not be totally possible, but then I at least try.
In the last nine years, if nothing else, I know that I have
learnt to speak out. I have learnt to take chances (even if they are very few)
and I have started taking responsibility for my actions.
Last 9 years, have been a like a non stop roller coaster
ride, where He and I have seen so much, where he and I have lived through so
much, but we still feel that there is more to live , love and be together. More
fights. More kisses and more challenges.
Today, as I type this from my office, I can’t stop thinking
about you. I would give anything to be with you right now, but I am sure that
you will make it up for me J
I Love you!!
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