So today is the day. 9 years back on this day, at this instant as I type this, I was in conflict with my own emotions and I was wondering, and over and over again that if I will ever find that love, if I would ever be lucky in love and above all, if my feelings for this boy are true or just a natural reaction to all the attention that I have been getting from him.
Today, we are married and even more confused. He tries his best most of the time to make sure that I am happy dappy, and I act like a prick always getting mad at him. He of course has his moments, when I am left speechless. Sometimes in a pleasant way and other times at his being so ridiculous and careless.
But mostly, we find that common ground that we have been holding on to for the last 9 long years, where we can feel the love and be the teenagers that we were, when we fell in love with each other. We have had and are still facing the troubles that there are in our daily lives. On certain days, I feel like I have bitten more than I can chew and on the other times I feel that, my appetite is still not full.
Whatever the troubles for me, for us in the world, at least for me, the moment, I am in his arms, the solutions seem at an arms length. The impossible may not be totally possible, but then I at least try.
In the last nine years, if nothing else, I know that I have learnt to speak out. I have learnt to take chances (even if they are very few) and I have started taking responsibility for my actions.
Last 9 years, have been a like a non stop roller coaster ride, where He and I have seen so much, where he and I have lived through so much, but we still feel that there is more to live , love and be together. More fights. More kisses and more challenges.
Today, as I type this from my office, I can’t stop thinking about you. I would give anything to be with you right now, but I am sure that you will make it up for me J
I Love you!!