Its almost the end of the "International Women's Day" and I have had a miserable day. Trust me- PMS is the worst phase that a woman can go thru....
Anyways... I am jobless, my exams get over on the 10th and my so called classes start three days later. But then what?? The same ol life- I get up at 7.30 in the morning leave home at 8 and reach college by 9.30, attend classes till 12.30 and then head back home. And if that is not enough I'll come back home to a sister who's exams are on. My best friends exams are on... and there is nothing for me to do. Ofcourse I have an assignment to finish, with 7th April being the deadline. I'll prolly have a college fest too in the same phase... but trust me I am tired of being the one man army... I am nerdy... and they want me to dance in the fest and win the gold medal there too. All of a sudden, I feel that I am leading too normal a life.... till a few months back I was over satisfied with my life... and today that satisfaction has vanished into thin air.. I want to do something different... I want to run away from my house and without carrying any guilt... go on a road trip, a car trip.... any trip.... but the hitch is that I DONT want my Parents haggeling along... I dont want that factore of predictibility anymore..... I know that I say... that if say it too loud then life would do something really exciting... but somehow all those binges of excitement that dear life has thrwon on me happen to have a negative energy oozing out from der... I want some positive adventure...
I want to run away from a life that has become a fight between sleeping the whole day and checking out mails in the hope of getting that one reply from the damned companies that I have applied to... and then there is my dear mother who is so worked up on making me work out.... I know that this is gonna just help me.. look good.. n et all.. but temme whats good, when you do it either alone or with your mom.. who happens to be a master in Yoga and can actually taunt you to death if you cant do it right...!!!
Anyways... I am jobless, my exams get over on the 10th and my so called classes start three days later. But then what?? The same ol life- I get up at 7.30 in the morning leave home at 8 and reach college by 9.30, attend classes till 12.30 and then head back home. And if that is not enough I'll come back home to a sister who's exams are on. My best friends exams are on... and there is nothing for me to do. Ofcourse I have an assignment to finish, with 7th April being the deadline. I'll prolly have a college fest too in the same phase... but trust me I am tired of being the one man army... I am nerdy... and they want me to dance in the fest and win the gold medal there too. All of a sudden, I feel that I am leading too normal a life.... till a few months back I was over satisfied with my life... and today that satisfaction has vanished into thin air.. I want to do something different... I want to run away from my house and without carrying any guilt... go on a road trip, a car trip.... any trip.... but the hitch is that I DONT want my Parents haggeling along... I dont want that factore of predictibility anymore..... I know that I say... that if say it too loud then life would do something really exciting... but somehow all those binges of excitement that dear life has thrwon on me happen to have a negative energy oozing out from der... I want some positive adventure...
I want to run away from a life that has become a fight between sleeping the whole day and checking out mails in the hope of getting that one reply from the damned companies that I have applied to... and then there is my dear mother who is so worked up on making me work out.... I know that this is gonna just help me.. look good.. n et all.. but temme whats good, when you do it either alone or with your mom.. who happens to be a master in Yoga and can actually taunt you to death if you cant do it right...!!!
Not only that I am tired of my stupid attitude... I mean.. I making myself believe that everything is just so fine.. and that there are people who lead much more deary lives... and that there are people who are worse than me... that is who lead much more visibly miserable lives.... I have to start believing that I want to change... change the way I lead such monotonous life... and change the way people look at me.... (ook... I dunno about this).
Atleast- Life looks better....if its a lil unpredictible... or is it... damn this is so so.. stupid.....
3 comments:
hey dee dun b so small hearted...u no LIFE GOES ONNN....and u VE to COP-UP WID IT, cant help it!!! there are so many ppl like u who are facing things but as i say if those damn companies dun tak U..than U DESERVE BETTER and they WORSE. u will soon be so happy wid ur life , that u'll feel lik 2 delete this blog because as life is A MOUNTAIN u will have that time to feel that life is so good...so jus relax and njoy life how GOOD or how miserable it is cause, its good for U (as u ve also mentioned that too)to learn for future that a bed is not always made of roses..it has many stuffs..hehe. and as far as mom is concerned u noe how mom is...she is jus that she wants her daughter to look THE BEST no matter how. she will hang u but for ur own good. so u have no need to be so damn low for wat mom is doin 2 u, cause u also noe, after som time she will herself give up and will be back to normal...so njoy and all the best...i love u sis(u da bst!!!...)
hop this makes u feel better...:D
luv u loads again!!!
ciao..
wow! nw tht's some piece of advice from sumone hu's hrdly 15 yrs old. I guess the generations r gettin mature much faster, eh? well...u knw sumthin? It's hardly an issue...I mean, c'mon...there's once gonna b time wen u'd crave for tht extra minute to spend for urself. So...y doncha hv a ball while u hv the time?
Alright both of ou... thanks for lifing up my spirits... but doncha think that i am almost 21 yrs OLD and that I am treated more like a bloody 12 year old... wen am I gonna live the way i want to?? I mean... I have never really rebelled against my parents n all but then... isnt it high time that they realis that even if I drink milk twice a day with chocolate in it... its more like hot chocolate n not milk.... and that I too deserve to see life the way I want....
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