Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Time flies- I am where I was...!!!


" the only thing that is tailor made by life is trouble- you have stich the happiness,success and desires yourself"


This quote is a direct pickup from the television commercial of Grasim suitings. But well..what the hell.. this is the only ad which puts this fact about life right on your face... that unlike windows life is software that does not come with a troubleshooting feature. But well.. your friends and family pretty much make up for that part.


But not always.


This year is into its third month...and the only thing that gave me an high was Sania my neice... rest all.. is as dull as it can be... I think that how soever superstitous... but this surely seems true that the transition second of the new years night sets the trend for the year that is to come. It was a very frustrating night... not not sexually... but well... emotionally... I was at home.. I was angry...coz everything got spoilt for me... and I thought that I had grown up... there was no party to look fwd to and there was no maid at my place either. So that meant that my transition day/night was spent in the bed under the covers me all cranky n frustrated... more so.. that I could only get to speak to my boyfriend after 1 am (that happens almost every year) somehow I had managed to talk to him in that transition phase in 2006-07, no wonder that we were able to meet thrice last year.. very memorable.


This year- No such start or push has been given to me...or rather- I think that I missed out on something... there is frankly speaking nothing to look forward to this year... I cant even seem to scrounge up internships...forget any one being outside Delhi... I was banking on a certain scholarship paper... that is happening in less than 10 days from now... and I am so fucked up coz...its a banking/finance paper...and I belong to a science background... I dont even knw my budget basics...

That is the career... trend that is going on...


Emotionally...family wise... I dunno..its a mixed bag.... but I know that my frustration about my career plan going all haywire is spoiling stuffs here too... all I can say is that I have become much more angrier..irritable.... and even though we have a amid...she needs to be constantly supervised...that means..even though I am not washing utensils.... I am still washing clothes (coz of the washing machine...she's not keen to learn how to operate it) and warming the food in the microwave...

The only person that I am being very pateint with is Shayon, that is because... we dont get time to fling out our frustrations at each other... we ...well atleast he is keeping very busy. Btw, he is down with chicken pox... all my dear friends who read my blog... wish him best of health... and now... finally his dream of being a proffessional blogger is turning into a reality... he wrote his very first blog for WATblog... and it got published too... that is great news na...


I know life is not fair... that is an old saying... it maybe cliched... but its surely is as applicable as it gets... So here I am where I was... nothing much to look forward to... but still tring to weave... my dreams into the knit of reality in the fabric of life.....

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