Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Save Room...

"What If..."
I don't know if you all do it, but I know that I do it very often.

There is always an alternative going on in my mind. There is always the 'What if', which is bugging me. But the reality is always different. In the world of imagination that I have created for myself, I am always thinking about the other way that I could have taken, then what life would have been.

But the one constant that is always there in all of my 'What If' situation is my boyfriend. Somehow, I just don't see myself living the last six years that I have without him being a part of it. There is always a way that I fit him in, so that he be a part of my life. And the ONLY 'What if' alternative that I have not made, is getting married and/or spending my life with some one other than him.

And today, when I hugged him for one full minute at the airport, after meeting him, I realised that how much I missed him, making me feel more guilty that I could not be with him when he was in Calcutta.
Then at his house, when, I held him for longer, I also realised how much he missed me. How much that hug meant to him. The one that I should have given him twenty days ago.
And as he held me, he kept kissing me on my head and calming me own. It was without any words that we shared the grief, the loss and the sense of our togetherness. The words, are they ever enough between the people who share a lot more than common interest?

I sometimes, wonder *the sometimes is a lot many times*, how can any one be in a marriage or for that matter of fact in a relationship, where you can't even understand when a person needs a hug, when he needs to be comforted. And, I am glad, that my darling bf know, when I cry, when I am laughing, even when I am not in front of his eyes.
Today while I was trying tell him where I am standing at the airport,


I said "Can you look at the Y place next to the X, Place.. I am on that side.."
He said "I am near that Y place... "
I said "I can't see you..."
He said "You can't see me, because, I am sure that you are looking only at the place X"
I am like "Huh! How do you know? Can you see me?"
He said "That is because I know you!"

And that just made me smile. Made me feel proud, of the person who I have chosen to be my life partner. I know, that there are still loads of hurdles that are to be crossed. The tough period is yet to begin. The frustrations and the fights, well, they are round the corner too, lurking somewhere...
But, despite all of that.
Despite, knowing the fact, that, another battle is about to begin, I know that today, I love him, that I am proud of him. His strong spirit and his love that is just for me.
My sweetheart is back to town, and the hardest good bye, just a couple of weeks away..

Baby, if you are reading this- Know, that I love you. And I missed you!
And this song  is just for you!


Say that you'll stay a little
don’t say bye-bye tonight
say you'll be mine
just a little bit of love,
Is worth a moment of your time.
Knocking on your door just a little
it's so cold outside tonight
let's get a fire burning 
oh I know I'll keep it burning bright
If you stay,
Won’t you stay?
Stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love, Save a little,
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me, Oh

This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don’t be afraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is on the other side.
Let down your guard just a little
i'll keep you safe in these arms of mine
hold on to me pretty baby
you will see I can be all you need

If you stay
Won't you stay? 
Stay
Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love, Save a little,
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me, Oh

Oh c'mon,
Make time to live a little
Don't let this moment slip by tonight
you'll never know what you're missing
'till you try,
I’ll keep you satisfied

If, you stay
Won't you stay?
Stay
                                                                   - 'Save Room' by John Legend 
                        

17 comments:

Shayon said...

As I told you yesterday...now you are the only woman in my life!

♪♪HARINI♪♪ said...

Awwww that was the sweetest post ever!!!

Alka Gurha said...

Touche!

Jack said...

Sakshi,

Real test in a relationship is to be there at the time of need and no words are required to say how you feel. You have proved it. I hope and pray all goes well now and you two are together for life.

Take care

Tangled up in blue... said...

Awww..I have a big smile on my face after reading this, Sakshi! You're one lucky girl to have that kind of love in your life! :)

Banupriya said...

Happy for you dear :) Ya you indeed one lucky and proud girl..

Wicked Witch of the West said...

Lovely post :) And so, so glad that you two were able to share that much needed hug at last.

And I totally second the you being one lucky girl - Shayon is the best, would be the happiest if my girls could find someone like him (although of course less disparaging of the iPhone...).

Sakshi said...

@Shayon
I love you!

Sakshi said...

@Harini
Thanks :)

Sakshi said...

@Alka

*Touch wood*

Sakshi said...

@Uncle J

I really hope that your prayers are answered!

Sakshi said...

@TUIB

*Touch wood*

Sakshi said...

@Banu
Thanks :)

Sakshi said...

@WWW
I know he is the best.. now, all I need is to quickly settle down with him!

Bikramjit said...

:) blissssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Bikram's

☆ Rià ღ said...

Aww...so sweet!! I m glad he read this and love his comment too. :)

Rohit Dassani said...

hey u guyz look so cuteee..... :) wow...