Monday, September 12, 2011

The hare & the turtle story!

Facebook has become such a necessary hazard.
This is how you remain in touch with people, you get to know what is going on their lives, and above all, despite the distance, you end up feeling a part of the happy moments in the life of the people with whom you once shared certain moments of your life!
But for a person like me, it is a tool, that makes me depressed and is the easiest way to make me jealous.

Yes, I am human too.

See the thing is, that I see, so many things that are happening in people's lives. They are holidaying. They are having family functions. They are changing jobs, they are in general having fun.. whereas, looking back, as to what even facebook shows, I have singing the same song over and over again. The words may be different but, the meaning is the same.

On a totally random note, there is no picture of me, for my 25th Birthday. This is totally depressing!

Any ways, coming back to the two faced knife called facebook.
Now, recently, I thanks to FB, got to know that Shayon's very first boss, who runs a start-up, got engaged. Like ENGAGED. Not in a relationship, not a new girlfriend.. or anything- Simply engaged. Now, this guy, even though, very nice, has a history of having many a girlfriends. And now I see his status as engaged.
I am happy for him.
And then suddenly..
I am jealous. I am angry. And I am flustered.

Because, after almost 7 years of being in a relationship, bf and I are back to the square one. He and I are in different cities, again. There is absolute uncertainty about whats next.
The mundane existence is killing me.
Bf doesn't have time for me. It's like we are always on a different time, despite the fact that we stay in the same country. Yes, we are working around that, No, there is nothing wrong in the 'Love-Land' per-se. But, I am feeling very restless.
I don't know, what tomorrow holds for bf and me in terms of marriage. All of a sudden, I am very scared, that in a bid to make everything right something will go wrong.
And I am blabbering.

In one line- I think I am ready to take the next step in our relationship. And, the wait is becoming unbearable.
Almost every one is getting set to get settled, start a new life. And here I am stuck where I have been.
And there was a time, everyone was sure that, we would be the ones to take the plunge first!


14 comments:

Jack said...

Sakshi,

RELAX. Remember SABR KAA PHALL MITHAA. I agree it is time for next step, say engagement with a reasonable gap after sad news. Best of luck.

Take care

☆ Rià ღ said...

Don't worry...whatever happens will happen for the best. And trust me if ur relationship is meant to stay it will work no matter how far or near u both are.

Saurabh's World said...

Fun Fact: Most of the people gets active in FB in extreme condition, either to show off, or to get sympathy :D

suruchi said...

don't get effected by what's happening around you...there would always be more happening people n stuff...

once you get married, there will be people your age having kids...you'll have kids, love goes out of the window n u'll wish u were back to the courting days.

it's a vicious circle!
let time go with its flow...push n pull karne se koi fayda nahi hain:-)

hugs!

♪♪Happy Go Lucky♪♪ said...

Facebook makes me so jealous too! People going to awesome places and doing awesome things :/

Well its going to be worth the wait the day you take the next step. Maybe the staying-away thing is just making your relationship stronger. And maybe you'll realise this when you're happily ever after.
:D

Sakshi said...

@Uncle J
This fruit JUST refuses to ripen! I am getting very restless, deep breathing no help!

Sakshi said...

@Ria
I know, that is one of the major reasons why this relationship despite the downs has managed to stay intact.. but restlesness, and irritation.. not helping!

Sakshi said...

@Saurabh
I know about this. As a matter of fact read an entire article on it!
But thanks for reminding me again :D

Sakshi said...

@Su
I know. I will have my own time too. Like each dog has his day!
But, well, pushing the wall will not make me thinner, only more irritable! You are right!

Sakshi said...

@HGL

Yeah maybe. Maybe. Too many 'may's.. the june doesn't seem to come!
But, trying trying.. and still trying! :D

DISGRUNTLED GENIUS said...

Somewhere on FB, there must be a person who might be jealous of you. I know I would have been. 7 yrs of a committed relationship when my love life is a messed up state of affairs?

You cant have everything always. Just make the most of the present.

Sakshi said...

DG
I agree with you whole heartedly, but, bechara dil kya kare!

Thanks for dropping in :)

DISGRUNTLED GENIUS said...

Yeah..dil. That nagging little creature . Gentle, subtle killer aint it ? lolz

Saurabh's World said...

BTW - Anyone tried Google Plus yet.