Friday, October 21, 2011

Rant- a Thon!

I am 3 drinks down,. It is my best friend's birthday.. actually it was her party that I got drunk in.. Thank heaven's that I had another of my buddies to drive me back.

I am very upset.
I generally, cry over these things, but then, I did not feel like crying. Instead felt like channeling my anger here. In this post.

My best friend got a diamond ring from her bf, for her birthday. And, you know what, I have not even gotten proper time from my bf. Yes, I love gifts. But, then I also love my gifts to be thoughtful... but you know, right now, at this instant, I am not craving a materialistic gift. I am craving my time. I know, bf will say that I give you all the time that you want.. it is just that I can't ALWAYS give you the time that you want. But, I feel that there has to be something wrong somewhere then.. because, I am always craving for more as far as time is concerned.
Just can't have enough of him can I.

You know the wedding that I talked about in my previous post.. well, sister and I had a whole 25 minute piece ready for the sangeet, but apparently my other brother and sister in law feel that it will be too long. Yeah, now, we have to ration out, how much do we perform.. for a wedding that we have been preparing for so long. Of course, it is their wedding.. we are just guests after all.
I am a very family person. Maybe too much of family person.
But for my dear darling brothers, who are like really nice and very generous otherwise.. when it comes to the most important things in life, it is their friends that take precedence over family.
And I hate that.
Don't misunderstand me, I still love them. A LOT!

It is just that expectations kills everything. Be it love, family, friendships!
All, I can do is feel about things. And vent the ire here.

Yes, maybe this is the alcohol speaking.. but, you puke your troubles out, when alcohol comes in!


Jack said...


Relax. Why are you getting so tensed up? Everyone has to have share of pie, isn't it? You can not hog the major slice and have to share equally. You and your sister will make a mark even in short time given. Friends too look forward to let their hair down on such occasions. So RELAX and ENJOY.

Take care

Tangled up in blue... said...

Sakshi, sometimes people can be very unreasonable. They dont agree with stuff we say, even when it's genuine good advice. They irritate us, they make mistakes. But I suppose, sometimes, we do the same at times. There are ups and downs in every relationship. You just gotta wait for the crest after the trough. Things will get better, I promise. And alcohol makes anybody all emo! :) Take care, dear girl. *hugs*

Suruchi said...

haha...wondering what you thought about this after the alcohol stopped speaking next morning?;-)

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♪♪Happy Go Lucky♪♪ said...

I figured that expectations ruin everything too!
The lesser you expect, the more is the happiness you'll get from the small things in life :)