Father of the Bride

It is hard being a grown up. You have responsibilities, you have to earn, you have to take care of everything. And in midst of it all, you don't realise when your kids grow up and start sharing your responsibilities, and slowly the next generation has taken over.

But if you are a father of a daughter, you have one major thing to do. To marry off your daughter and send her off with a person who you hope will love her and cherish her the way you have. And being a daughter, I know it in my hearts of heart that no one can match the love of a father towards his daughter. And I personally feel, that since the mothers go through the whole leaving their parents house when they get married, it is the father who has the hardest time in believing that his little girl is all grown up.

Daddy's Lil Girl! 

My father is no different. I still can't forget the day people started seriously questioning his intentions about getting me married. His face just became so so small, and he just gave a weak smile. And whenever I think of that moment, I know I am going to howl myself hoarse at the time my doli will be leaving.

My dad has never really treated us as grown up.. me and my sister.. we are his spoiled brats and even though we do our share of responsibilities, we both just know that the moment dad will get a chance he will treat us like a kid. I still don't take decisions, even simple ones without first asking him. I know on the inside he realises that slowly the time is coming, and he has joked with me a million times telling me that I can reach the mandap and decide not marry at all.... and tell every one that 'mera aaj shaadi karne ka mood nahin hai!'. I know how deep rooted his fears are, about the person who I am going to marry, the family that is going to accept me and how far will I be from him.. but his fears also border on the facts that young people marry rashly and end up getting a divorce *he has had his share of experience in the court rooms*...

Add to this, that stupid Sony Handycam Ad that comes in every commercial break... you know the one that shows the father reliving all the moments of his daughter and then in the last scene she is married and she comes to say bye and her dad says, "I can't believe you are married" and the daughter hugs him and says "I am going to miss you papa" . I choke every time I see that god damn Ad.


Even though, I have always wanted to get married... you know like Geet in Jab We Met... "Mujhe bachpan se shaadi karne ka bada shauk hai" types, it is the realisation of leaving my father and my family behind that makes me cry and shed tears, every time I think about it.

I dunno what is gotten into me tonight.. but right now, I wish I was back being the new born in fathers arms and that I was yet to grow up.