To resolve or not to resolve, that is the question

I remember, when we were in School, the first set of discussions between friends was about the New Year Resolutions.
I just remember that. I don't remember the kind of resolutions that a school going kid/teenager would make. I mean, losing weight? Or I believe to study more and come first or something on those lines.

For the last couple of years (more like the adult life), the resolutions revolve around the weight and yeah the weight. In a workshop that I had attended about 2 odd years back, while the guy giving us the lecture was talking about goals, he said that our goals should be tangible, and hence imperative that we talk about it, or tell people what our goals are so that they can nag us to oblivion about them. So while New Year is usually a landmark day, when people decide that it is time for a new chapter and set out the resolution, I believe, that, the resolutions should instead be goals, and the resolve should be to achieve them.

Whether your resolve is out in the public, or is private to you, should be your own thing, really. I would not want to achieve a goal, any goal for that matter because of "what will the other person say", but should be my own. I should be my own judge, whether I fail or succeed. But, if your goals are achieved by being in the eye of the public, then, go that way my friend and if you want me to be the nagger, I will be more than happy (my husband, happier still).

But so far as I am concerned, my first goal is to make a set of goals, and then some how, any how, make myself stick to them. I think, my first goal should be to get rid of the Instant Gratification Monkey. And then I believe, that I shall be able to somehow reach a stage where I would be able to make resolutions and stick to them.

Though I do know that, I really do want to be a better person in 2017. Work on several things in myself to be that better person.

So here is to 2017, to new goals and a question of resolutions!

Lets Break the Patterns: Happy New Year 2017

And in a blink of an eye, 2016 is over.

It was like a terrible roller coaster, and it seems to have just intensified.

We welcomed 2017 in our "new house". Yup, another year, and another house. This time in south delhi, close to my office and in the area that I have grown up in. The weird thing though was that, I actually cried when I left my house in Gurgaon. It was/is a beautiful house. Spacious, and while it is close to the highway, it is just at the right distance from the noise, pollution and traffic. And somehow, the house gave me a sense of being close, yet far.

We are testing waters in the new house. The good thing though is- that the trend of family and friends visiting us in our house continues. We had friends over on the day/night we shifted, and have had people visiting us in the last week. Hell, even brother from Dubai dropped in last evening.
This is a trend that I hope continues.

While this is the trend that I hope continues, there are others that I hope to break this year. I have been trying really hard to break some of my habits, but I guess trying hard is not as good as accomplishing the goal is. It is trully amazing the amount of grit that I am trying to build in order to break the patterns and start anew.
There is one little thing though- While I am trying to control my anger and my impatience, I see huband sort of getting into the whole anger, impatience, irate zone at a drop of a hat. It may be me. But, then, I think that it is time that we both break our patterns.

I see 2017 as a year which will define our lives in lot of ways, and may also give us an insight to living in Delhi (proper). While I still feel the hang-over from 2016, and 2017 still seems on its way, all I can hope for is the best for all of us.

Here is wishing you all a superb New Year!

May 2017 bring all that you desire!

And its a WRAP : Year End Saga IV

I don't think that I'll be writing anytime soon. At least not till the year has turned again. I remember the year before, as December 31 was approaching, my heart was in my throat. We were planning a retirement party. We had just come back from an epic holiday, and while I was not looking forward to the year in general, I was at the back of my head anticipating some adventures.

I made the mistakes of anticipating adventures, and had the biggest one I could have ever imagined. Just as the year drew to a close, we moved to Delhi. I lost my grandmother within days of us moving to Delhi (the family thinks that Dadi was waiting to ensure that I was around, I of course feel that I wish she had helped in raising my kids (whenever that would have been)).
I learnt that despite giving clear instructions, when packers and movers come, you are always in a mess, and it is VERY important to separate the stuff of your landlord from your own.

I am in all honestly not in a celebratory mode. I miss my grandmother, who is gone, but mostly I miss my Husband who despite being around is just not there. So I have nothing really to look forward to in 2016. I am still in a bad job. There is no career movement at all from where I stand, and if things remain the way they are, I'll be thrown out soon as well. Yes, the year is not ending on a high. It is mostly ending on a note that is leaving me with way too much to desire and dreams that seem nothing but a mirage. Nevertheless, patience and perseverance they say pay. Eventually. One can hope.

So here is wishing you all the best in the coming year.

Dear 2014

Dear 2014,

Hi. Welcome.

When 2013 came to fore, I was mostly bitter and I thought that my life was doomed. But as the year progressed, I realized that it was not that bad.

That there is still hope and finally, I was pleasantly surprised when the year ended on a high. A few tears were shed.. but then I guess, my new year is never complete without a tear or two.

And now you are here.

I don’t want to be apprehensive about you. Actually, with you I want to take the approach of “Crossing the bridge when I reach it”. There is going to be major upheaval in our lives as we move forward. And honestly speaking, I would rather close my eyes and open them on 01^st January 2015.

But like they say, one has to see all, and I guess this is the year when  I will really get to know, whether I would be a bitter person or a better person.

All hope and pray from you is that please please instill a sense of stability in our lives. Help us, mostly me for being happy about the things that come my way. Of course, ideally I would like things to work out the way that I have thought of. But wishes are not apples.

And finally, make us win a jackpot!

Here is to hope & dreams.

Because, that is what this year is going to be all about..!!

Happy New Year…!!!

 

Lots of love,

Me