Are You ready to change?

How would you rate the word change??? Good , bad, average or maybe you have your own opinion which defines change for you…!!!

The hardest part about Change is the change itself…. When you are so used to doing something and that change, it alters everything…..from the way you see things to how you perceive things to how it ultimately makes you adapt to things that are new to you…!!!

To be very frank it was very hard for me to change my way of looking at things… or rather my way of doing things. But one thing led to another and I finally managed to change and that change mind you bought with itself lot of hope and good luck. I have a knack of keeping things from the past… something that might be responsible for making me a clingy person. I had almost all my books and notes from like 5th standard till 12th standard stored up for reference… u know, “The what if I need them sometime in the Future….” syndrome.
But finally I let go of it all… because I finally put a fact in my head that The so called reference that might be in the future has no time efficiency and it may be today or it maybe never.

These little things that changed me, also made me throw away my past that always made me realise that I have been a loser… and that losers do not dream. So much so, this little exercise that I did to clear away the mess in my study table cupboard cleared my head to an extent that I finally made myself a promise that whatever happens I will not ruin my present or my future with my attitude of clinging to things that cant be changed and thinking about those I’ll ruin my chances of having a good time now and tomorrow.

It was very hard.. and there were no visible results for almost two years, but today as I am sitting in my veranda, soaking the sun, I look back to the two years that have gone by, I realise that the whole thing started by me pulling away all my guards and sharing a part of the pie of my life to my present boyfriend, an acquaintance then. For all the moments that we spent together just talking about our pasts, and how to improve our present, we fell in love, and I who was just so not in to long distance thingy, fell in a LDR.. and that trust me changed everything for me….!!!
And I am very happy.

Like somebody famously said;

“The only thing that is constant is change”

Are you ready to change… ??

Manual for Love.....

Its already 3rd of Feburary and love is in the air....the month of feburary brings with itself lots of pinks and reds.. and ofcourse in the season when the flowers boom and spring is round the corner.. the Cupid looks for all the possible targets that can be hit by the arrow of love....!!!

Next week, on the 7th of Feb, International Flirting week commences with the rose day seeking to increase the rate of roses from a mere five rupees and ten rupees to a whooping 50 rupees a rose....!!! And this week encompases The Hug Day, The kiss day.... chocolate day... ofcourse there is a slap day.. and sorry day.. and finally the festival of love The Valentine's Day...!!!

Keeping up with the trend of the growing popularity of the Valentine's Day... all the news papers and the magazines start up their 101 tips on how to maintain relationships, on how to flourish romance in the ongoing relationships.. and much more.... The advice coloumns see a marked up increase in the number of problems coming on their way.... The best books that can be bought during this season are probably.. Why are men from Mars and Women from Venus.. or Why do women cry and men cant read maps...

An insight into the relationship of two people who are in love with each other. But how are these rules prescribed by the experts good or bad for you?? Trust me, I am in a relationship and well.. I have taken every quiz that has come in the News paper... but the results do they really matter??

The fun of having a relationship wherein you are the boyfriend and the girlfriend, is to sort out your problems within yourself, to understand the relationship yourself... between the two of you... what would be the difference between this relationship and the others, when you want the perspective of a third party where the two of you are involved....

Of course nothing wrong with taking a second or a third opinion. But when these advices go overboard, and start weighing more than what you think about each other... and about the whole situation.. its time to take control... This is what my opinion is.. and trust me I do that. I have had a very bitter experience when a third party was involved in a problem between me and Him. This might and might not be true for you....!!!

Is there a formula you can follow so that you have a perfect love story.... ahem... A perfect Love story never exists... if its perfect then its not love.. because love is the bonding of two imperfect souls to make a chaos of the lil dream world that they create...to seek.. satisfaction, happiness and above all.. the feeling of togetherness and yeah.. love....!!!

Happy Loving...!!

Behind the Scenes....

If everybody will become an actor then how will one produce a movie?? Who would direct it.. and finally who would come and watch it... you yourself.. the producer, the director, actor and finally the audience too.. isnt that too many a roles that you are playing??

Ofcourse there is nothing wrong in being the jack of all trades... but then there are masters too right...!!! Since we started with the movies.... the making of a movie... well.. its not a job that is easy and the results that we see on screen is the effort of lots of people who have worked behind the screen to give a hit that you would carry from the cinema hall back home in your hearts. These people sell you dreams... and there is a whole lot of people who work in the factory where dreams are produced.

And in life too often when we dream they are shown to us by lots of people who come along our way, who in a way work behind the curtains contributing towards the movie of life to make it a sensational hit. These are the people who define the winning moments of life.. and these are the people whom we forget to thank... not you.. even me... I am no super human.. and ofcourse there are so many people that you bump into during the 24 hours that go by in a day that its hard to stop and say thank you to everybody.. especially when the results of the eveident encounter come years and years later.. but then.. dont we thank God.. and that is probably the easiest way to thank all those who you bump into....

Isnt this kinda becoming too spiritual a lecture...?? Ill leave this reight here with these famous lines from a Shakespear poem The seven ages...

All the world's a stage,And all the men and women merely players,They
have their exits and entrances,And one man in his time plays many parts,His acts
being seven ages.

Salaam-e-Ishq

Everybody falls in love... and well you ahve truely loved someone you would probably relate to the six couples that have portrayed the theme.."Love is a problem" all too well...!!!

The critics havent reviewed this movie well at all.. I din read the reviews at all.. because i wanted to see the movie. I saw is four days after it was released.. and of course there were who had seen it... and most of whom who had seen it.. said that it was foolish to watch the movie... it is 3 hour fourt minute movie.. but if you go on my words its never really streched. I believe that six love stories rolled into one... it deserves atleast this much of time...!!!

Out of the six couples in the movie, Ashu n Tehzeeb (John n Vidya) have the most rocking chemistry that sizzeles the screen. There is a lot of one liners that make you laugh at the emotional moments, otherwise adding alot to the element of humour are Phoolwati n Ramdayal (Isha Koppikar n Sohail Khan) and the mis communication between Raju taxiwala ( Govinda) and his madam Stephanie. Akshaye Khanna who has played the role of Shiven, does a la saucy guy with perfection.... and well Anil kapoor and Juhi Chawala, pulled off their parts really well as well. And then there are Salmaan n Priyanka, who constantly banter at each other... while chosing between dreams and love...!!!

Then there are few one liners.. (highly emotional) which would make for some perfect proposal lines.

And then there is the music of the movie.... which is mind blowing.... !!!

Over all I LOVED the movie.... and must see atleast once even if you are not the romantic movie type... alright.. you don wanna go.. make your gal/guy happy and take em with you....!!!

Here is one line.. which is pretty inspiring to make you fall in love...

"Pyaar waqt dekhkar nahin kiya jaata,usse kiya jaate hai jiske
saath aap waqt guzaartien hain"

Looking towards a New Horizon....

Hard work always pays in the form of success.. isnt this the very line that is often put towards us in the glare of all the lectures that one and all have given us??

And isnt this the same line that we would finally repeat when we advice it to somebody.. atleast I tell this about ten times a day to my students who come to me for their tution classes. But they think that didi is probably just giving them another lecture.

Ofcourse it really does not mean that I am not a rebel and do whatever my parents ask me to do. I have a life and I live it too...!!

If you look at my previous post on this page I think that I have mentioned abot having a past... if not then well... lemme mention it here... I have a dark past..(no nothing personal but on a professional basis...) meaning, I fell flat on my face more than once to reach this certain point in my life. And that fall made me stop hoping for ever getting the best. But slowly to my utmost surprsie I found myself working a lil.. and got encouragment after seeing that those lil efforts actaully yeilded results.

I study in a very obscure college with more than obscure university backing it up. That is what I am told everytime whenever I conjure up a good result in my exams(Topping in the college). But that has not stopped me from dreaming. I know that for me to have an edge over my collegues studying in top most institutes I need to do something extra. And that something extra is the nerdy image that I have formed of myself.... but it doesnt hurt.. coz... life is all about taking its reigns into your hands.

I have joined a course to put addition to my qualification. And ofcourse add more weight to my C.V.

Most of all... this success has paid me in more than one ways... it has made me look towards a new horizon .. where I can stand and finally smile in satisfaction of achievement....

And Finally... its out....

I had no idea that my last post would make god listen so closely to me... My results got out and well... I'll put it as humbly as possible that well... I topped again.. and hence that makes me the annual topper of the college.

Its a very rosy picture... but trust me... for coming to this position I had to face lots of stuff.. somebody really put it right when he said.. that there is no shortcut to success except hardwork...!!!

Cheers...!!!

And ofcourse special mention to my parents and the special someone in my life. Ofcourse teachers are to be thanked as well... but above all its God that I have to thank....!!!

The blue and the pink of it....

I could not sleep last night.. I was having nighmares..... I was sweating... and my heart rate was more than the normal. One time I was feeling toooo cold the other tooo hot.... and well... as I write this... things are not so normal.

These symptoms are of neither an heart attack nor an love attack. But are of something more than that. They happen to be the symptoms of a poor lil girl who is awaiting her results for like sooo much of time that the breaks in the reality show results have started too seem reasonable.

Yes this is my condition.... and in short is known as Result Blues... but well... it sure is making me Pink.. white and yellow....

This whole drama started towards the last few months of 2006. I had given my 2nd sem law exams in the month of June and then like a usual bindaas entity started my 3rd sem in the month of August. Well... the results often come by the month of september at max October. But this time the media decided to do a nice sting operation on the University and found that lots of papers were missing and a many more being checked by 5th standard students. This whole bawaal.. bought the university to a standstill.. and now that it has finally started working the results are awaited. I know that I cant do any thing.. but anxiety happens to be a emotion embedded in the human sub concious.. or where ever.

Now, that the hope is filckering with two senior semesters getting their results the speculation is on an all time high.... tomorrow.. day after or when....??? A million dollar question that reamins unanswered and is evading my peaceful nights.. and days...!!!

Oh Please- Give us our result.. and break away the suspense....