Yeah, this bout of realization hit me at 1.30 am in the night. I will not really disclose the source of this realization, but, right now I am scared. Scared to death.
I desired power. I am ashamed to say that, I misused to create a mess that refuses to untangle. I have tried so hard to untangle this mess that- I am losing all control and all measures of it.
And in the process, I have hurt people. I have
Words have been spoken, that should not have been.
Actions by me, that have created havoc, which reminds you of nothing less than a natural calamity playing havoc with innocent lives.
In a bid to find my self. I have lost everything that I have stood for, my entire 23.5 years of my life.
And, I do not know, if I would ever get a chance to, and even if I do, if I will have the courage to owe up to it-
Yes I have fucked up major time. Not only in your minds, but in your hearts and souls. And, all I want to say to those dear people-
That I am really sorry for causing you so much of pain and hurt. I am sorry for the storm that has been stirred up, and equally sorry for all the love that has been lost.
If at all, I get a chance, I wish to heal you all and to make you smile and love the way that was.
I truly am sorry.
PS: The people referred to, know who they are. Thus, no comments required.