Song in my Head!

On the first page of our story
The future seemed so bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war, you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie..


So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

It's morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
With you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

Love the way you lie

                               - 'Love the way you lie' (Part 2) Rihana Ft Eminem

Madness of the world,
a tiny part of insanity,
you me and our love...

There is always a 'only if',
and there is also an 'when and if',
down and out, over and over..
patience,
lost in all the muddle..

Fighting within,
fighting with the world,
fighting for your right,
and fighting for what is wrong..

Material gain versus the,
person within you,
sanity versus the insanity in you,
love versus the society,
war versus the peace..
It is all about the fight,
all about the choices,
that we make in our lives..

A path less taken,
or the one oft treaded on,
our destinies are writ,
whether we like it or not..

Defying the fate,
holding on to what is ours,
just love, of you me, and ours!

One more Update!

There is so much that has been happening around me. I have been dying to write. Dying to update you all into the little little things that are changing me, each moment. Forcing me to move ahead and to move on in life, towards a new beginning. A new me, in the making.

But there is still a long way to go!

A detailed post with all the mirch masala is coming soon.

PS: I am reading all the blogs, just being super lazy about commenting! Will get active in commenting soon! :)

PPS: Thank you all for all your prayers. Shayon's mom is doing much better! 

Lil Update

Hi All!
I have load of blogs to catch up too! Just saw so many new blog posts up!
But, I have been finishing up a lot this week, especially, with the half day on Wednesday... and now the office trip in couple of hours. I am really nervous. It is like going for a school thing when you know no one else at school! Its scary!
But hope fully will make through the weekend, and will be back happy. Two nights with loads of strange people in the wilderness and no phones! That is a tough one!
Wish me luck!

And all the best to team India! This one we have to win for own little Master Blaster!
Have a great weekend, I promise to catch up on all the pending posts when I am back! :)

PS: Please also take a minute out and send a little prayer and best wishes to Shayon's mom, she has taken ill!

Thank you! 

Hi Fiving the tag!

The Cow tagged me into boring you all and telling you about the five things that are this and that! So carry on and be bored! :P


A)      Five things in my room:
1. My sofa cum Bed! The thing that surprises most of the people and they end up asking me, ‘Who sleeps on this, you or your sister?’
2   Big Picture Collage- That is hung right above my bed, it captures my journey from being a toddler till turning 20!!
3.  My big Study table that houses everything, from the computer to books to clothes
4.  Stuff Toys- There is one pony hanging from the handle of my almirah, and there are stuff toys generally all around the room.
5.  The BIG bold stripes of yellow and orange that captivates the fun element in my room!! J

   B) Five things in my bag:

   1. My notebook- Very important considering that I am a lawyer, and I need to take down notes as and        when required.

   2. My lip gloss (es)- Yeah, not one or two atleast four of em are present in my bag. Depending on the nature of the occasion that I might have to go to after office.

   3. Earrings- A pair of earrings just in case I need to dress up asap!

   4. Hand sanitizer- A must, now that we get hungry like nomads, we don’t have the patience or the inclination to wash hands. We do away with the Hand Sanitizer!

   5. Then there is the Comb, clips, pens and pencils. Along with loads of rubbish papers. And a book.

 C) Five things in my wallet: 
  1. Money- Atleast some.

  2. Id Cards- I need to carry my proximity card around to gain entry in the court premises.

  3. Other Cards- That include business cards, credit cards and a Debit card.

  4. Old Bills- For some weird reason I have loads of old bills that I carry around.

  5. Barkat ka Sikka- I was gifted a silver coin on Diwali for prosperity and I keep it with me all the time J

D) The five most favourite things about my house:
  1. My secret Window- There is a bay window in my room, and whenever I need some ME time, I sit there  and close the curtains. No one knows where I am hiding.

  2. My Bathroom- I have a fetish about clean, hotel like bathrooms. The one attached to my room, is just like that. A big Mirror, loads of girly stuff and super clean. One of the many reasons why my sister and I can stay in there and talk on phone for hours! ;P

  3. The Drawing room- I just love the drawing room. It is the joint effort of my mom and me and we are very proud of it.

  4. My house is super airy, and has loads of sources of natural light and during summers it is great coz, you have loads of natural light for most of the day.

   5. The big Veranda- I have loads of plants there and it is the most awesome place to sit during the winters and enjoy the sun.. and the rains.


I tag:
Ria
Shagufta
Kashvi
Bludheemary
Uncle J
Harini
Bikram
Rohit
Su-ruchi 
TUIBS
Orange
Banupriya
Kali


And anybody and everybody who wishes to take up this Tag! Happy tagging & you are It!  

Do you think you know him?

My cousin got engaged yesterday. She is two years younger to me. It was a lovely party and an appropriate occasion for all the relatives to raise their eyebrows and ask me 'So when are we hearing your good news?' 

 In the light of all this leg pulling by cousins and taunts by the elderly (considering that she is younger to me...yeah they were taunts) my tyaji pulled me apart and wanted a status update about 'us'.

And so she heard my side of the story. About how the horoscopes have increased our woes in life. 

She reacts by telling me 'M is back home (M is a distant relative who got married last to last year). I was like huh, why? 

Tyaji tells me that M had a love marriage and she got married within 6 months of knowing this guy, and their horoscopes did not match either, but she went ahead and got married. I ask her again that why is she back home? Then she tells me that he used to hit her etc. I ask her, did you get married after your kundlis were matched? She tells me- But I am good. And I know that you are too. But is he good? How long have you been together? 6 years, I answer, then she asks, so you know him. His mood swings etc..' This is where the conversation ended.

And, I was left at this question of, 'Do I Know him?' I think that I do. I know when is he mad. Because most of the time he is mad at me. Most of his mood swings are because of me. I am an irksome person to be around, easily can get on any one's nerves. As a matter of fact, going by what the boyfriend says, I have become unpredictable and he doesn't know what ticks me off any more.

I think, that we human beings are all very complex beings. There are a gamut of emotions that passes through our head in what 1 second! How can I guarantee that I know him? Or that I will not do anything at all to tick him off to an extend that he loses it all? Don't we all have thresh hold limits? 

I can't guarantee anything, but I just know that he is a good person. A good human being, maybe not perfect, actually he is not perfect at all. His romantic quotient is zero. He is more happy with his PC, phone and his bunch of games than talking to me at the end of the day. Hates my nosy relatives , who I love Alot! 

In a way we are two different poles, but thanks to our magnetism, we keep our world intact. Or atleast try to. 

I wish that this becomes easier for us every day. It is just that, easy and our love life don't go hand in hand at all. So just hoping for the best, and yeah, getting to know him each day.  

Affirmation!

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
Until you say goodbye!!!
                                           -Affirmation, by Savage  Garden
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I was supposed to complete this Petition ASAP, but when this song played in the background, I just could not help smiling and feeling all lifted! And for some weird reason I felt like sharing it with you all :) I love this song, it is so positive and so so uplifting :) Happy Listening !!!