My cousin got engaged yesterday. She is two years younger to me. It was a lovely party and an appropriate occasion for all the relatives to raise their eyebrows and ask me 'So when are we hearing your good news?'
In the light of all this leg pulling by cousins and taunts by the elderly (considering that she is younger to me...yeah they were taunts) my tyaji pulled me apart and wanted a status update about 'us'.
And so she heard my side of the story. About how the horoscopes have increased our woes in life.
She reacts by telling me 'M is back home (M is a distant relative who got married last to last year). I was like huh, why?
Tyaji tells me that M had a love marriage and she got married within 6 months of knowing this guy, and their horoscopes did not match either, but she went ahead and got married. I ask her again that why is she back home? Then she tells me that he used to hit her etc. I ask her, did you get married after your kundlis were matched? She tells me- But I am good. And I know that you are too. But is he good? How long have you been together? 6 years, I answer, then she asks, so you know him. His mood swings etc..' This is where the conversation ended.
And, I was left at this question of, 'Do I Know him?' I think that I do. I know when is he mad. Because most of the time he is mad at me. Most of his mood swings are because of me. I am an irksome person to be around, easily can get on any one's nerves. As a matter of fact, going by what the boyfriend says, I have become unpredictable and he doesn't know what ticks me off any more.
I think, that we human beings are all very complex beings. There are a gamut of emotions that passes through our head in what 1 second! How can I guarantee that I know him? Or that I will not do anything at all to tick him off to an extend that he loses it all? Don't we all have thresh hold limits?
I can't guarantee anything, but I just know that he is a good person. A good human being, maybe not perfect, actually he is not perfect at all. His romantic quotient is zero. He is more happy with his PC, phone and his bunch of games than talking to me at the end of the day. Hates my nosy relatives , who I love Alot!
In a way we are two different poles, but thanks to our magnetism, we keep our world intact. Or atleast try to.
I wish that this becomes easier for us every day. It is just that, easy and our love life don't go hand in hand at all. So just hoping for the best, and yeah, getting to know him each day.