Present: Right Here!

Hello my Lovelies! I am right here, I have not abandoned this blog.. and you are not so lucky that my inspiration for ranting out loud will just go away in a jiffy!

I have been unwell lately. Was down with fever and thus was not able to update the site. I mean, I was really in no mood to talk about body aches, and head aches and eye aches...

Not heart ache either. *I do not complain of acidity!*

So for the last six days, I have been resting, and doing nothing. And, I swear doing nothing is the hardest thing in this world to do. And the most that I would wish to trouble was my dear sweetheart at work.. which I had to control with all that I had within me. And therefore to pass time, I watched TV, yeah television.. and I watched all the daily soaps... loads of em!

And, I can't believe myself!

In other news, my cousin who is two years younger to me announced her wedding. And that brings me back to the topic of the Gift that Shayon had given me on my Birthday.

*I have not yet come around to uploading pictures*

Yeah.. so, Ahem.. I .. Shayon..

Well, Shayon proposed me on my Birthday, with a ring and the down on the knee thing. And, I was holding my cake in one hand *which was yummy* and it was the parking lot.. and my Birthday, and I was totally crazy Happy!

And, now, I have to go and talk to my parents. ASAP.

No more taking advise on how to do it, because.. they are my parents.. and they have to know it. And they would- Really soon.

The action that follows, may or may not be recordable here, but from you all, I need prayers, that things fall into place for both of us. Because, it is not that so much time has gone by, or that both of us have gone through a Bad phase and that this is required...

Because, this is what we Both want. To be together, and be together. Both of us want to start a new journey, and since every relationship needs to grow from one phase to the other.. it is time to GROW! 

Both of us need your blessings and your wishes, Especially me! 

Pure Seduction

This is the name of a fragrance that I got on my Birthday, but really wanted to share the following lyrics with you and as soon as this song came into my mind, this title struck me.

"Kya Gazab karte ho ji.

Pyar se darte ho ji..

Darke tum aur haseen lagte ho ji!

Kadmon mein sar rakh ke,

hum yahin so jaayenge

Haske tum dekho hum khush ho jaayenge...

Jhooth hi kehdo ki tum bhi humpe marte ho ji

Koi nahin hum dono hai,

main hoon meri angaadai hai..

chale aao meri baahon mein,

badi pyaari tanhaai hai...

Raat milan ki tum kyun .

aahen bharte ho ji..

Kya gazab karter ho ji

pyaar se darte ho ji...

darr ke tum aur haseen lagte ho ji"

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This is for someone special :)

Happy Birthday- To me!

Turning 24 is not an easy job. Its like with each passing year, you have to grow in responsibility! Or so it is said. I look in the mirror, and I really don't see myself ageing *Thank God for that*.. but on the inside you feel, the OMG of becoming another year older!

This birthday by far was the most special by all means. Apart from the fact that I threw a party and surprisingly it was successful... and that I cut four cakes.. and all of em were chocolate truffle flavour! And it was for the first time in years, Shayon and I were together for the 12 o' clock cake cutting, and he gave me THE best gift ever! To know what that is... well you all have to wait till I upload the pictures.

The day otherwise, was wonderful... I started my Birthday with Shayon and I ended it with him...
Its just very weird to feel 24.

I had Ms. Kashvi with me for a night stay, and Ms. D.O. was one of the first call me! It was so so awesome! :)
Uncle J's card was also really nice!
Another cute cute thing that happened was the Ms. Wicked Witch of West-  called to wish me from down under and it was so silly coz, I could hardly understand her... thanks to the noise around and her accent! Oh, and Shalini from Das Laben also e-mailed me her wishes! It was such a delight to open the mailbox and see her mail!
I can't thank enough to all the people who made my birthday so so special!
Thank you all for the lovely day that I had!
This was probably the best thing that has happened to me thus far in the whole year!
Thank you all!

WHY do I even Bother?

I mean.. This is the second year in row and I totally know that this time also the so called Birthday Party is gonna flop.
:(

Back To School!

Through the mirror,

of time,

I look.. and the I see..

Slowly I reach out..

And I can almost feel...

I close my eyes,

and I am transported,

back into a time,

when everything was- Grand!

The friendships,

over the gossips in class,

the leg pulling, which often,

went too far!

The washrooms,

that were more like,

the rooms to exchange,

notes on boys and on change,

in fashion, Mind You!

The crushes, 

that went by..

not even giving you,
a second glance,

and the friends,

who made sure that,

they embarrass you,

till you blush.. and get red,

like a cherry tart!

From the Uniform, 

to disregarding it,

from the exams to,

the annual days..

from competing to be the best,

to flunking in your favourite subject..

School days,

have that charm.. that,

even after years, 

when you pass by that gate,

You wish you could go inside,

and stay on.. and live that life,

over again.. 

for once! 

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PS: I met a couple of my school teachers recently, and then, all of a sudden, the whole back to school feeling and nostalgia is getting me! So this is for my lovely schools.. I am gonna be a lil biased, I love AFBBS more than Modern.. Because, I always value my foundations that were laid in AFBBS... Modern just added one more brand.

But never the less, both were my schools, and I Miss my School! 

A Simple Wish!

Its my birthday in a week!

Not expensive gifts,

nor anything extravagant..

On the day when I can ask for a gift,

I want to reclaim...

My dreams.

My desires!

Happiness with soul in it!

Love, which is left me.

And,

My life.. which is not ready,
to come back to me!

I hoped,

I lost.

I re-hoped, 

and I was slapped!

But, I am holding on,

to the thread of faith..

Blindly yes- But nevertheless,

it is there!

For faith I learned,

is the the Dark night,

each of us know nothing,

about the next minute of our life,

yet we live on, with all our might!

That every moment in life,

is Nothing- But an act of faith!

And for my birthday-

I vow to restore it! 

Mirage

In desert, where for far,
the only thing that you can see,
is a mirage!
Even an oasis,
you would pass by,
thinking that it just another,
trick by the nature on the passer by!

I too am standing,
at such cross roads,
where even though you are real,
I don't want to touch,
and make you disappear!

It would be like,
been woken up from,
a dream that was as,
real as reality itself,
only to realise,
that the dream was,
where your perfect world is!

Its not perfection that I seek,
nor the wisdom from all the seers,
neither am I searching for that life changing truth,
I am just hanging on, trying to learn..
the truth about what I really want,
of the little world inside my heart,
and of a truth that my soul wants,
to talk about!