13 going to 30!

It even sounds weird!
"Hi, I am 30!"

I mean I know and I have heard enough about the "age is nothing but a number", but it is weird when you sit back and realise that all of a sudden, you are neither in your traumatic teens, nor in the drama twenties, but you are suddenly thirty.

It is like entering the teens. All of a sudden you are a kid and then wham bham you are teen. And in all hoensty, your twenties are usually an extension of your teeange years.You are in college when you are 18, 19, and 20 (and even more if you are in a professional course or pursuing your masters!). So you are being taken care of, you are being paid a pocket money or you are doing odd jobs to support your passions and even when you are fresh and out in the world to do a proper job, you are full of adrenaline and enthusiasm to take over the world.

Suddenly you are 25. And if you are in Delhi, that is a BIG deal because now you can officially go drinking. And by the time you end reveling in your quarter life crisis, you are 27, all of a sudden it is all about getting married (you may also be married for a year by then!). And by the time you realise that your life has suddenly changed, from the teens to the twnties, from school college to work, from single to being married (and being a parent too in some cases), you hit the thirty mark.

You are expected to grow up. To take up responsibilities like they are sacrements and always, always make sense of all the decisions that you take. Whether it is about your marriage, your family, your career, everything. It is like, from a scale of 1 to 10, (1 being the lowest), you are allowed a margin of error of (minus) 1.

Is it like changing everything overnight? No. But it surely does instil the feeling of "change". It makes you feel inadequate.
When you are 30, you tend to look back, and look back alot (or at least I do) and assess about what all have you achieved.
Unfortunately, the society has put the assessment in a straight jacket of: marriage, family, kids and career. And as you assess against these you have a panic attack, because, you are failing. If not in all, then definitely in one (and if you are the kinds who has it all- then, please share, how?).

While I have definitely not failed the complete assessment, I also know that maybe things could have been better. But, jab jaago tabhi savera!

I think, the most important thing in my life that I have done and am proud of is finding my dear darling husband. He will disagree to say that, we fight like maniacs, so how can he be my best find? The fact of the matter is that, while I assess my life in the societal straight jacket, I am grateful to have found someone who is willing to change the norms, and who is willing to question everything (it does get annoying.. but..) . It makes life a little bit more exciting when we have a million apps to satiate our hunger for binge TV watching or when we just take the car and find ourselves at places like bhootgaon!
Of course life is up and down and I am not particularly happy about reaching an age where I am judged because my uterous has aged more, and us having kids has become a conversation starter. But, I am here now and I can't really help it!

I think, what I take back from my last 30 years is that while I have effectively changed as a person, from being totally hopelessly unsatisfaioed, angry teenager to a little less of the same, I am slowly becoming into my own person. I am blooming maybe a couple of years late. But I am blooming. From cooking awesome food, to learning how to argue better (respond and not react), from realising that mornings have always been under-rated (especially post the rains!) and that exercising should have been started at least 2 years ago.. from the emotional, and financial mess to trying to untangle the mess by taking control of things.. it seems that there is a lot of catching up to do. All the things (including relationships) that have been taken for granted need to be rebuilt. And these are the tasks that have been cut out for me/Us!
One more task that is just for me, is to learn patience and satisfaction. There is no dirth of things that are happening with people in my so call friend list, and I need to stop assessing my life against them. I need to learn the art of letting go, and embracing whatever comes my way. Another thing that I have to learn and accept is that even with the closest of people you can't expect them to completely change and/or adjust to yourself, there has to be a middle ground. Maybe it is time to get into meditation, and to move towards a little bit more stillness. And by that I mean, grounding your emotions to train your mind to not have oscillating emotions. To think through situations and to really be able to assess the consequences of the words coming out of my mouth. To be less angry, less unsatisfied.
This would be like a emotional rehab for me, I may lapse and re-lapse into my old patterns, but I have to try. I have to be a better person, a more solid person, because it seems that, this is what is holding me behind and has husband doubting my skills to be a grown up.

While, I try to be zen, I will also try to dance to on the crazy songs, just to remind myself that life maybe a struggle, but as kids, the most we worried about was the homework and the vacations, and how life was simpler.

Happy 30th to me!

3.0

Has it been 10 years since I entered my twenties? It seems like yesterday. And as cliched as it sounds, it does seem like yesterday. And it has been half a decade since I discovered that when you hit your quarter life mark, you don't grow wings either.

I remember my 20th Birthday to the extent that I still have the collage that the sister had lovingly made for me. We had it framed and it hung proudly in my erstwhile room. I call it erstwhile, not because I am married but because the character of that room has also changed. And that change had begun exactly a year back. I surprised my parents and they surprised me back. The layout of that room and the furniture of that room had always kept me grounded, and always reminded me of the times and nights that I had spent there weaving my dreams. Now most of it is with me in my house (pati ka ghar) because I am in NCR. Including that collage- Which hangs on a wall above our bed. It is quite a placement, because on the other side of the bed is another collage that I had made on our first marriage anniversary. So when I stand on the foot of my bed, I can actually, physically see the change in the circle and see the times that have gone by and the people who I have lost on the way to death.

Apart from the BFF, the only other constant has been the Husband and I have to give it to him, I am not an easy person to deal with, and he has done it. Not only did he date me, but about 6 years back on my birthday eve, he proposed to me. We were going through all the pictures the other day on the ipad, and just as 2010 was getting over, I was like oh, after this I wont be in any pictures, only to realise that, we have been together from 2005! So yeah, my Mr. constant, and my support and my everything too!

So now, a decade later, a week to my 30th Birthday, I have been forced to sit and think about life. It has been more than a decade since I turned 18, and while the world has turned upside down, I have never assessed what I have achieved on adulting!

Whenever we have gone for job interviews, and otherwise also, we have often been advised to make life plans and life goals and garner satisfaction from achieving those goals that have been made and ticked on the "Goal List". What they don't tell you is that when life happens, the goals get fucked.

I also had a life plan. And according to that life plan, I would have had reached a point in my career where I was the boss or atleast someone senior, and that I would have had a family (kids), and a house and whatever the best version of a happily after. And trust me when I say that none of the life goals have been achieved.
I had thought that 20ies was when one struggled, and that by the time the third decade rolls in, there would be stability.

But, life happened my friends. While my BFF is settling down in a family as per her plan (yeah baby and all), we are on a completely different planet. The questions have become so uncomfortable that, I avoid unnecessary spending time at my parents. And when I have to be there, I have to change subjects because, I have no answer to their question of stability.

Life is becoming like a dark alley without a light where I am groping in the dark trying to make sense of things. I am not completely disheartened, I am just tiring down. It is like a never ending road.

I don't know, whats happening any more, and I hate the fact that I am almost 30 and I still can't control whats happening in my life.

My crazy antics, and my stupidity are the only thing that are keeping me sane, but, now life calls me to be always serious, 30 after all is a responsible age. Just about it. Or so I guess.

As I countdown (in my head) to my 30th Birthday, Madcap Loon's advice keeps pestering me- Age is nothing but a number. For men maybe. But for women, 30 is a psycological mark. It is when we start using the anti-ageging creams, and it is when we the society starts telling you that you have missed the turn, and that you better hurry and hope that your child is healthy when you have him/her. This is also an age when however hard you try, even air makes you fat and then it takes you forever to shed it off, when you need a full night's sleep to recover from a late night party and all of a sudden there are friends who seem all grown up, and make you feel juvinile.

I don't regret the last 29 years of my life in any manner, I do believe in whatever happens, happens for the best. But, in the next decade, I think, I want to be a better version of myself. I want to be less stressed. I want to be more settled, and I want to be at peace.
And all of this- I want with the Husband.

Let us see, from here, where life goes!

To the Moon and Back!!

No, I am not going for a trip to the Moon.
I am of course tripping today.. Because it is the Husband's Birthday!

And not just any Birthday.. has officially entered the big 30 club. (Though I have no idea, why the hell is it called a club in the first place!)

So, yeah, since my man has turned thirty, and since, I believe in a lot of DIY (from god knows when!), I actually did a lot of projects!
From a video movie (Husband called me the "I Movie Ninja") which was messages from a lot of people (the family and friends) and a clock that I customised (by painting it and putting graphics on it) and I also customised a coin box for him!
There is a string of photographs lining the wall of my room, showing the moments of his life and people who have been a part of his life.

And, the thing that he loved the best was the "Jar of Memories", which was basically a mason jar containing messages from some people and loads of memories from his past. Trigger words, that would cause him to smile and think back to the good old times.

I have never been more satisfied with the gifts that I have done for the Husband.

So, my dear dear husband, here is to,  a new decade, to a new milestone, to success, happiness, love, laughter, wanderlust and US!!
Happy Birthday!!! 

Just perfect

A couple of years back, I tried to throw a birthday party, and it flopped. Hardly anyone showed and that was the end of the Birthday party at home.
The year after that, the party was at the club, with all the cousins and a few friends. It was also the birthday on which the husband had proposed me and like they say, sealed the deal.

And yesterday was a step further. I am cynical to say the least about my birthday  and this was my first in 27 years without my parents or couains or the BFF around. The thing that I forgot was that, it was also the first as a married woman in house with two men, and a husband who loves me like crazy, even though he drives me crazy most of the time ;).

From cards, to books, to a superb hand bag, to 4 cakes to awesome lunch and an even more splendid dinner at one of the best Coastal Restaurant in the country (Dakshin, ITC Maratha) and not just us, it was the friends and family that really mattered to me,  no to us. I was surrounded by love. And while we swapped our stories, about childhood, experiences and just the general banter we were being treated to some great food. My father in law and husband split the hefty bill and I sat there wondering why.
(One of my Dad's aunt yesterday commented that while I was turning 27 in the biological years, I was turning 1 year old in the new family, and just like the grand 1st birthday that my parents did for me, so was this Birthday grand in its own way..)

I being me asked the husband why.. And all he said was "if not for you then for who". And I cried, with joy of course.

I know that we have our own set of things and issues that we deal with everyday. And I have often been told and I also belive that relationships and marriages are not just two people being together.. It's always a work in progress. And while we invent and learn about the newest ways to make each other miserable by the virtue of being married..
These perfect days become the memories that I will treasure for the life to come.

Thank you my dear Patidev, you truly are a catch ;) and you are the best thing that has happened to me.

Just Another Day..

The husband has been telling me that I get really frustrated whenever we talk about my birthday. 
I told him that is not so. 
The reason that I just don't get excited anymore is because I can't deal with the disappointment that ensues after I get excited about something special.
The experience of the past says it all. Every time I expect, I end up being disappointed, and hurt.
So when it is alleged that I am frustrated.. It is not entirely true.
It is just the slight irritation at the fact that I am being told to get excited, when understandably thanks to the past I know that it will be just another day. 

Happy Birthday...

You would have turned 26 today.

Probably after the hoo hoopla of my wedding, the family would have been hounding you and you would have walked off huffing and puffing, saying that you never want to get married and that you don't like boys.

In hopes and dreams, I wonder if you had finally gotten over your anxiety of boys, maybe broken a few hearts.. or maybe you would have been steadily dating someone by now.

But then, those are hopes and dreams that will never really become a reality.

Would you have been cribbing about work? Would you be staying in Delhi or would you have moved out... All I can do is sit and imagine about my world, our world had you been around.

Now you are not.
As you figure in the happiest memories of my child-hood, so you figure in happiness of my life each day.
A heavy heart sets in.
The broken promise, the shattered heart, wishes, just that.

I can still complain to you. You don't scold me or scowl or get disappointed at me any more. Though I wish you would.

Happy Birthday..Darling! You are sorely missed!

Happy Birthday Kashvi!

To my darling Kashvi-
A very Happy Birthday :)

She has become a big girl in the true sense, from her last birthday to this- From a college student to w working professional.. I wish her all the best in everything that she desires!
I pray that she becomes this phenomenal journalist with loads of fame and one day snubs her boss for all the attitude that he gives her!

It is just simply a pleasure to have a friend, who doesn't judge you but still manages to pull your socks up! :) A friend who is there, ALWAYS!
Thanks for being the wonderful being that you are!
I love you!
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PS: I really appreciate the concern that all of you all have for me. But there is a reason why I close comments on certain posts. There are times, when I have to JUST speak without  giving a justification. A lot of people know and respect that, I would really like all of the readers on this blog to respect this. 
Thanks.

Have I grown wings.. as yet?

No, I have grown no wings.
And, today doesn't really seem to be special at all.

I am going to be mean and say, that since boyfriend is not around, there is no excitement in life.. but the truth actually is, that, there is nothing exciting happening. I am gonna go out with two, three (if Kashvi is free) of my real close friends out for dinner. That, we do otherwise also.

I don't feel like, that it is my Birthday today. My boss, Ms. MA, the seniors P,MDR & V, have not even wished me Birthday. Not that I was expecting them to, but, then there was a tiny winy hope that they would. But, then, a wise person has said that, expectation is the killer.

There is no meetha, that has been cooked in my house. On the contrary, there was gheeya for lunch. *Which I don't eat, so basically, no lunch from home either*. Actually, my parents also don't seem too excited about it being my birthday.

Boyfriend, sent me a bunch of roses, and a Black-forest cake last night. Along with it came a card, which started as 'Dear Jaan.... ' and ended with 'I love you'... and I think that it was super funny because, well, because, dad was the first person to read that little card!

The thing that made my day, was the message sent by boyfriend's dad. It is an amazing message, and it just fills me with warmth and love!

And yes, there were the usual calls, meaning, usual people *who would have been killed had they forgotten my birthday* called to wish me! Which is always awesome :D

But honestly speaking, it doesn't feel like that, I have turned 25.
Was I expecting fire works at my Birthday.. well not really, but some sort of excitement somewhere. But, never the less, it is after all my Birthday, and I am sure that this will be a better than the year that has gone by, that there would be loads of stuff to look forward to, and most importantly, like Moo, the cow puts it, hopefully, by next year on my Birthday, I would be getting all ready to take the next big step in life!

So, wings are yet to be grown, as I step into another year and start the quarter life crisis!

Happy Birthday to me! 

A Birthday wish!

Today its your birthday...
I want to write a BIG post about you..
I always do!

But, I am just very overwhelmed, and have no words to express my love for you today.

I know how you are feeling. I know that in today's celebrations, something is amiss,
but I just want you to know, that I am here for you and that I really love Love love you and that, I pray each day for your Happiness, your Success and above all I pray for that contentment to return to you.

I love your smile and that is what makes me fall in love with you, over and over again!

Happy Birthday Sweetheart!
Here is to your Long life, great Health.. Loads of Success & Happiness!

I love You! 

For my Darling Doll!

Dear Kashvi,

You are turning 21!!!! I know I am not supposed to tell your age but then, I am a pseudo feminist and blah- who cares- It is YOUR HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And, I am super excited! I wish you all the best for whatever that you decide to do in your life.

Our friendship that started as a matter of chance through this world of blogosphere- for me has gone to a completely different level. I have never in my life met a girl, who is like you. You are just YOU- a different person altogether. Beautiful from within, the radiance of which reflects on your lovely face.
I am supposed to be elder to you, but even for the tiniest bit of my problems, I rush to you for a solution!

In you I have found a friend, who I can bully and talk to about any thing and every thing that comes to my mind. Without the fear that I am being judged or that I am going to be loved less!

There is so much of warmth and love in you, and I am so glad that I get to share a part of it, being your friend!

On your Birthday today,
I wish you great health, loads of wealth,
fame beyond the boundaries of world, and love that will keep you safe!

I love you! And Happy Birthday :)

Present: Right Here!

Hello my Lovelies! I am right here, I have not abandoned this blog.. and you are not so lucky that my inspiration for ranting out loud will just go away in a jiffy!

I have been unwell lately. Was down with fever and thus was not able to update the site. I mean, I was really in no mood to talk about body aches, and head aches and eye aches...

Not heart ache either. *I do not complain of acidity!*

So for the last six days, I have been resting, and doing nothing. And, I swear doing nothing is the hardest thing in this world to do. And the most that I would wish to trouble was my dear sweetheart at work.. which I had to control with all that I had within me. And therefore to pass time, I watched TV, yeah television.. and I watched all the daily soaps... loads of em!

And, I can't believe myself!

In other news, my cousin who is two years younger to me announced her wedding. And that brings me back to the topic of the Gift that Shayon had given me on my Birthday.

*I have not yet come around to uploading pictures*

Yeah.. so, Ahem.. I .. Shayon..

Well, Shayon proposed me on my Birthday, with a ring and the down on the knee thing. And, I was holding my cake in one hand *which was yummy* and it was the parking lot.. and my Birthday, and I was totally crazy Happy!

And, now, I have to go and talk to my parents. ASAP.

No more taking advise on how to do it, because.. they are my parents.. and they have to know it. And they would- Really soon.

The action that follows, may or may not be recordable here, but from you all, I need prayers, that things fall into place for both of us. Because, it is not that so much time has gone by, or that both of us have gone through a Bad phase and that this is required...

Because, this is what we Both want. To be together, and be together. Both of us want to start a new journey, and since every relationship needs to grow from one phase to the other.. it is time to GROW! 

Both of us need your blessings and your wishes, Especially me! 

Happy Birthday- To me!

Turning 24 is not an easy job. Its like with each passing year, you have to grow in responsibility! Or so it is said. I look in the mirror, and I really don't see myself ageing *Thank God for that*.. but on the inside you feel, the OMG of becoming another year older!

This birthday by far was the most special by all means. Apart from the fact that I threw a party and surprisingly it was successful... and that I cut four cakes.. and all of em were chocolate truffle flavour! And it was for the first time in years, Shayon and I were together for the 12 o' clock cake cutting, and he gave me THE best gift ever! To know what that is... well you all have to wait till I upload the pictures.

The day otherwise, was wonderful... I started my Birthday with Shayon and I ended it with him...
Its just very weird to feel 24.

I had Ms. Kashvi with me for a night stay, and Ms. D.O. was one of the first call me! It was so so awesome! :)
Uncle J's card was also really nice!
Another cute cute thing that happened was the Ms. Wicked Witch of West-  called to wish me from down under and it was so silly coz, I could hardly understand her... thanks to the noise around and her accent! Oh, and Shalini from Das Laben also e-mailed me her wishes! It was such a delight to open the mailbox and see her mail!
I can't thank enough to all the people who made my birthday so so special!
Thank you all for the lovely day that I had!
This was probably the best thing that has happened to me thus far in the whole year!
Thank you all!

WHY do I even Bother?

I mean.. This is the second year in row and I totally know that this time also the so called Birthday Party is gonna flop.
:(

Happy Birthday Mom!!!

In my house, almost all of us were born on some significant day or the other!!! But my mother is our Santa Claus...

Very personal and very close to all of our hearts. This is one of the biggest reasons that we celebrate Christmas and make sure that the festivity is in the air, come what may.

Last year on her birthday I was in Mumbai, feeling sad about missing the festivities, but then, she had a great great day, with surprises galore!!! And on this birthday of hers, all I wish and pray is that- she gets whatever she wishes for...!!!

Love you mum and Happy Birthday!!!

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To all my lovely fellow bloggers-

May Santa bring you all that you desire!!! :)

Merry Christmas!!!

Sabbatical...

Hey there Sweeties...

Okay, I know that I have not been commenting on lots of posts and I am really sorry. I just have had no time to breathe easy. And, I have been totally wishing that there were a few more hours in the day.

There are cousins over, and there are weddings, and there is college, and tragedies. So, all in all, with the complete caste for a new soap opera, me to me time has been very very limited. So much so, that, I have not been replying to smses also with the promptness that I would like.

So much so, Shayon and have hardly talked in like three days. We both have been so caught up with the whole schedules of our lives that- UGH!!!

Well, I am off to a sabbatical for a week. Will be back next Sunday, thus no updates for a week for sure. But after that, there are going to be some nice posts that will be coming up. So, please, do come back to say a hi.

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Its Ki's birthday on the 13th. I am going to dedicate a post to her, but it may just come a day or two late coz of my travel plans-

So sweetheart- I know that you stars have just talked and that your birthday gift is well on its way- I really hope that you have a STAR birthday, just the way you like it. With lots of good wishes and lots of love, hugs and kisses from the loved ones.

Happy Birthday To YOU!!

Love you girl.

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See you all in a bit. Please miss me.

I am officially 23...!!! OMG!!!

I know this post has become long overdue, but well, I was sort of having an extended birthday..!!

23 years is a long time to me. Well, but I do know that there is lots more to life that is yet to come. But reminiscing the the 23rd birthday, all I can say is that- Life is a mixed bag full of chocolates- which one you get is on your own luck- and if its bitter- The sweet will be sweeter.


My birthday started with a bang- Not literally- but yeah- the very person who called me was Kashvi, and boy wasn't she pleasantly surprised that I received her call... and hers was the first gift that I opened, while talking to her on the phone. It is a pretty scarf, a BEAUTIFUL card and a lovely letter (I am a sucker for letters). As if that was not enough- The girl she is, she also dedicated an entire post to me... Thank you darling- You are one of the most wonderful friend that I have found ever and I intend to keep you with me.

The Veil that Kashvi gifted

Then there were my parents- who in anticipation of god knows what got me a tiara..!!! Yeah, you can see the picture and very well make out that my parents really think that I am not the kinds to grow up.

look at the Tiara...

The best surprise though was by Shayon. Yeah, by now you all must know him. No, not because I talk about him, but because of the post that he dedicated to me. It was awesome to see the post and to get my gift. (The reader comment say it all :))

The lovely couple...

But then the fun did not stop there- The birthday had just begun.
The calls were never ending. It was great to receive soooo many phone calls and so many messages from all the loved ones. Shayon's ex-boss and now a friend Rajiv Dhingra also called me to wish me. Now that was a shocker, but a pleasant one.
I somehow managed to get ready and found an auto that would take me to Shayon's place. (Now what was I expecting??? knowing him- nothing really... especially after the blog surprise)
(Oh- and Shayon's mum & cousins also called me to wish me... I know- it was hear warming) So, this dear boy opens the door for me- with a Bouquet of roses- and he is clean shave... (His shaving routine- I don't like it much...) and then there more phone calls, and while I was attending those, Shayon was making his own arrangements-
In the big plan- was a Cake, my favourite flavour... and something that I can still not really believe (No, not a ring)

The Cake

Me, cutting the cake.

He, booked a cab... and then took me to ITC MAURYA SHERATON for Lunch at BUKHARA. (Yeah- read that- again- and again... ) I was shaking when I got know where we were going.
And, the lunch was not just lunch it was with My favourite red wine.
To sit in between the elite- a restaurant- I know, not ANYONE in my family or relatives has ever gone to, it felt wonderful.
I was very very uptight till the first few sips of wine... but then finally loosened up a little. It was the best meal that I have ever had with him. (And, he is very picky and finicky when it comes to his food, can you believe, he even found a tiny little flaw in the roomali roti that we were having...!! and then the waiter, actually served us tandoori roti which was yum, and when we told him so, he packed the leftover of the rest of the food with another complimentary tandoori roti... wow..!! )
And ofcourse, there was romance. Lots of it.
Oh here is another really embarrassing thing that happened with me- Shayon doesn't have a fridge, so ofcourse, the cake had to be kept at the neighbours fridge. So, Shayon cut a piece of cake for them, gave them that to eat while asking them to put the rest of it for later. Now, those neighbours but ofcourse wanted to know, whose birthday it was... and thus me the great got a gift from his neighbours also...!!!


And this is where the good part of my birthday ended. Thus, began a series of disaster, that made me cry myself to sleep, and trust me- on your birthday- you don't want this to happen.
I came home by 5. And then started to make a few phone calls so that all the arrangements to the so called house party could be taken care off.
(I was even after a lot of Negatives- was expecting a few of my friends making the count to 15 including me)
We went to pick up the food that I had ordered, and also the cake that my Mum had ordered.
As soon as mom got into the car after picking up the cake, she started ranting, that they had changed the colour of the icing. But, then she showed me the cake, and it was beautiful. I just glanced at it thinking that, I would want to see it in its full glory on the table while I'll cut it.
But as soon as we got back home- in all the confusion of getting inside, Mom ke haathon se cake dabba gir gaya. Yeah- it is a pity that no one got to see what the cake really looked like. And then, all the things just fell apart.
None of my friends showed up for my party. Yeah, on a Saturday night... not one, but all of my friends got stuck at work... (Yeah you can make that sound of pitying me) the only ones who showed up was Shayon, Priyam, Aman, Anku, Kriti, Arushi, Priyam's Brother... and me. Not that I don't enjoy them, it is the best group to be with( they all tried really hard to keep me in my birthday spirits)- But my parents- I know were feeling sorry and angry at me at the same time. Not only them- I am sure my cousins were also feeling what a loser friend I am... and above all- I felt like a total loser. And its not a good feeling, trust me.
And, my mother is not very kind to me, when I have just had a total disaster of a party. I got scolded like I am a 10 year old... and, now, she is completely sure that I have weird friends...
Whats done and gone is gone.
But- if I remember this birthday for all the great reasons that Shayon gave me, I am also going to remember it for the fact that I cried myself to sleep that night.


Happy Birthday to me..!!!
oh and Jaanu- Thank you so much- I really love you... You made my day special..
And- D.O and Uncle J- Lovely e-cards- Thank you sooo very much.
Also special thanks to Gaurav- who called me all the way from Australia. Love you dude. I was smiling and jumping after your call in Bukhara.
And My MOO called up- and like a sweeheart calls me her baby girl...!! And I love it. Love you girl..
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Happiness like the sand on the beach is made up of all tiny things... and if held too tightly in your palms- it slips out...

A Very Happy Birthday, Jaan!

I know, you must be wondering who this weird guy might be, writing on Saxi's (that's how I spell her name) blog. Well, I guess Saxi has gotten you a bit acquainted with Shayon, and yes, that's moi.

It's been long long ago that I had been given the privilege of writing on this blog. However, thanks to my uber "busy" schedules, I could never manage to.

Anyway, I have no clue what should I write about, kinda feeling a bit out of place. Just wanted to announce that your beloved Sakshi's blog, Timeless Imagination, has now moved to www.imaginationistimeless.com. And I'd request you all to kindly update your bookmarks.

Yes Jaan, this is my birthday present for you. I know you had been wanting a domain name of your own, for some time, and now this one is yours to keep, for ever and ever. It might not be much...but then, I am hoping I shall be a part of your life long enough to make a difference.

Wish you a very happy birthday! Love you loads, baby!! Muah!!!