I finished my internship at FML yesterday. Finally.
The only good thing that I got out of the internship was maybe a sense of the world that- You can not always get everything. And you may have to compromise on somethings. You cannot have a great a job... great salary and great people. Something is normally amiss. But- who says that you cannot strive for perfection... being the human specie that we are- We are always striving for perfection.
The other good thing that happened is that I finally met Shayon. Even though the time we were alone was limited to the auto ride back home. Shayon was with a friend... our friend... and I had been wanting to meet him as well... so, the coffee was with our friend with us and the auto ride back was great fun... and daring... coz- Shayon like dropped me off all the way home. Not on the main road or anything... but right in front of my house.
And I have realised- that I am totally head over heals in love with my boyfriend. PERIOD.
The only thing that I have not been able to figure out is- that I why and how do I get all cold whenever anyone including Shayon and me talk about talking about 'us' to my parents. I am so scared that I won't be able to take that no.
I am so scared.
I know I have to face them- One day. But- I just don't know how to cushion the punch... (PUN totally intended...)
But, then there is a little hope... a tiny little voice in my head/heart... that tells me that it will work out...
And today, after I have finished one more internship and am just a week away from another birthday... I can see something peeking out from behind the curtains of life... I may be looking at the future that is waiting to be unveiled- good or bad- That time will tell.
But right now- at this instant- I am asking life... Whats next??
To know or not to know... to go with the flow... plan out... or wait for the next ball that life throws at you...?? Do you know what is it that you want from life... No, I don't.