So its been one week at work. I think I am getting into the flow of things, and well it is pretty decent, because the last time I complained about not having any work, I should have really shut up. Now there is enough to keep me busy and in office late nights.
And ironically, there is more work on saturday than on any other weekday. *yeah*
I am restless. Yeah, right now, I am restless, I am angry, and I am cranky. I wish I could just break down and pull my head apart... tug on my hair... shout and make someone understand that, I try. I do. I do.
Yeah, I can, say that n one understand me. But then I guess, I don't try hard enough.. to make the other person understand.. maybe, I should just give up on everything and go with the flow * seriously Chanz, when I put that comment, I meant it* , not understand, the why, and the what of everything that is happening.
I should gear up to fight.
Fight for what?
I think, my own sanity and thoughts. Destiny, I think... I am tired of fighting that. I am tired of tempting fate, and I am realllllllly tired of making sure that things happen. Does it matter? Yes, it does matter.
Why should I not fight. After all, I should not be complaining and ranting, and give up before a fight. But, do I want to really.
I can't figure out my own thoughts... how the hell should I figure out rest of the world...!!!