Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Goodbye my Lover!

This has been impending on me for a month, actually more than a month. I knew, that it has to happen. But, somehow, how so ever hard I try, it just doesn't sink in. Maybe, my power of letting go. The confidence that, I am harboring, about making through the next couple of months has a hollow foundation.

Yesterday, in his arms, all enveloped in his and engulfed in his kisses, talking about the future, I could hardly believe that the little world of ours was crumbling, and that in less than a week, we will again be a world apart. All his re assurances that, he will take care and that, we both will not make the same mistakes again... are a Deja Vu!
I don't think that I am ready for this forced separation. A cruel joke in every way possible played by our destiny. The last separation. I don't think that, I can survive another of these debacles. And I sincerely pray and hope that, this is the last of our so called 'Test of love', because one more and I'll probably throw myself out of a window.

I don't know if any of you have ever felt it. After the whole living in the same city thing, the separation and the going away pains my heart and I mean, not a literal pain, but it physically hurts, an emptiness shrouds me making me feel alone even in the midst of the most crowded room.

But I have to be strong. I have to focus. Hopefully I will manage!

And I leave you all with a couple of lines from  a song by James Blunt (Good Bye My Lover)  :

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.


And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.


I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.


Jack said...


You do trust him, isn't it? So RELAX. Everything will be fine after little more time.

Take care

RiĆ  said...

Yes u will manage dear...trust me when i say destiny has its strange ways. I stayed apart from my bf (now hubby) for 7 yrs!! And here i am today happily married, and with him. :)

Suruchi said...

test of love time is over baby...it's 'rest for love' from now on...things will work out...there's no other way out for them.

n he way you and he love each other-it is just a matter of a little time more

Bikram said...

patience .. and this time will move on tooo .. and soon it will be happy time again :)

all the best


Tangled up in blue... said...

That song always makes me a little bit wistful, but I'm sure you guys are just separating only to be together again real soon. Like the sweetest words in the English language go, and this too shall pass. :)

♪♪Happy Go Lucky♪♪ said...

Yes you will make it though. :)
Keep the faith :)