Hold my hand..

Hold on.. till eternity!

Okay so, the one month anniversary of being married came and went.
So did the New Year.
The set of responsibilities and the change over from being the Delhi ki kudi to being Mumbai chi polgi is also taking up a chunk of my time.

But in midst of all the madness and all the arguments, there is something that calms and soothes and makes me smile, gets me at peace and above all makes it really tough for me to come to office each morning.

There is some magic, I don't know what it is, but the fact of the matter is that the knowledge of the fact that I can reach out at night and give my hubby a hug or for that matter slept off while he is still awake and next morning I find myself in his arms (and him snoring away in my ears.. :P).

I remember a certain skeptic (an ex-blogger) who had doubts about everything, especially the institution of marriage. He had often said in his blogs that marriage is not about getting up each morning and kissing with a foul mouth and morning breath. And once the phase of kissing with morning breath is over, the real deal begins.
The same person had also told me (during the worst phase of my relationship with the Hubby) that once a relationship is cracked, it very hard to smooth over the wrinkles and the knot remains.

And all I have to say to all of this is, that each relationship and each phase of life has its own set of ups and downs and there is nothing that one can do, because unless there is down, we will never learn to appreciate the ups of life.
We all have the propensity to rebel to, to disagree to certain things in life. When younger, we rebelled the Cinderella timings, when in office, then their stupid rules (like I got to know in Reliance you can't take non-veg in your lunch box) and when in a relationship of that off a Man & Wife, you share much more than just your physical beings. It is a deal for your entire life and that makes it even more special.

What I really want to say is that, in the newest phase of my life, I am still trying find myself a foothold. I am still trying to stabilize.. and I am really lucky to have someone like my darling Hubby, guiding me through the rough terrain.
The morning breath can really go to hell, the urge to hug him and kiss him the first thing in the morning is what makes the rest of the day.. BEAutiful!! 

Dear 2013...

Hello.
Lets just be a little truthful here, and tell you that I am not very happy that you arrived.

Your predecessor, was a much more exciting year, and you my friend, are the hard hitting reality that I was shielded from for the last 26 years.
I know I have had really bad years. Years where I have cried myself to sleep on the New Years' Eve, have been angry at the world kinds New Year Eve's and even drunk out of my wits and talking absolute nonsense kind of New Years' Eve.

But when I had to Welcome YOU, I was scared.
I still am scared and antsy about you. Restless at the fact that while life has taken a turn, the road ahead seems all hazy.

BUT,
I am still hopeful. I look back and realize that I have survived what I thought were the worst times that I could ever get, so, I may just survive one of the many "New" New Years, that are yest to come.
I am still holding on to the belief that the newest phase and chapter of my life ain't gonna be that bad, and that you will by the end of it make me wonder, why in the world was I soooo antsy about you in the first place!

So here is to a lot of New, in the NEWEST year of my life in lot of ways!

Cheers!

The official round up of the YEAR 2012: Part II

So this year was about Change.

Change in the relationship status.
Change of the city.
Change of the office space and that of the bosses.

Above all I think there was major overhaul in the way how I had perceived life, and what it really came down to be.
Not that I have been any less cranky, but, yes, I too have finally learnt to mask my emotions, control my rage and change my ever snobbish attitude to the one of "adjust mani". Though the Husband would disagree, I still believe that I have changed. A lot.

And it is not only me, the entire year, with the people around me the trend has that been of change.
My father became a slight bit cooler about letting me party and letting my hairdown, and rest of the world started treating me on a different level. I don't know if it is the "Grown up" level as yet or not.

The Husband's changed too.
There is a major attitude shift. I think I am going to reserve my judgment about whether the same is good or bad.

The world in general, was striving to change. Or maybe that is what I thought.

 I think I have become a different person altogether, and I am yet to find out if I like the "New Me" better. (In some corner of my heart, I still wish that I remain as I was, and Life goes on!!)

Change they say is the only Constant in life. So be it!

To friends and friendships!

I realized that I have not written a poem in ages.. so, while I was remembering the good ol' times with friends , I penned down a few lines.. here they are..

A voice of a stranger

triggers the memories,

making me smile;

Then a song plays

and reminds me of the

times spent laughing

and carefree;

Finally there are the

memories of days,

hours and minutes spent

galvanting, chatting and

just being friends;

Making my eyes tear 

and my heart tear apart,

far apart, 

but distance is no bound

for friends missing each other,

loving and being with each other..

but;

How I wish,

if only time had wings

and 

I could turn back the clock.. 

to live in the carefree times

with 

the friends who are for

a

Lifetime

The official round up of the YEAR 2012: Part I

And we are back to the end of a very eventful year.
It is unbelievable that 2012 is coming to an end. Do I want this year to end?
I don't think so.
As a matter of fact, if given a chance, I would like to rewind the year, and just stop time right say, in January. But like they say, time waits for none, the year has passed and a new one awaits.

This year was about... Weddings

Photo credit (https://www.facebook.com/ishanphotography)

Trust me, it was just about Weddings (yes in plural). I got married. One of the best friend got married. The other best friend, P, has finally broken her silence at home and told her parents about her intentions to get married to her long time boyfriend.
There were 5 others apart from me in office (Delhi office) and at least two to three others (in Mumbai office) who got married this year.
There were other acquaintances and mostly 50 odd percent of my facebook friend list that got married.
So, if I say that this year was about weddings, it sure was.

Starting January itself, when we (as in the family) had come to attend a cousin's wedding and fix mine up, all we talked about the entire year till I got married (which was the fag end of the year) was clothes, jewelry, decorations, dances and food. Not only for my wedding but also discussed about same for the cousins and the friends weddings.
I have never looked at so many clothes in my entire life. Each dress, saree, suit was looked at with a critical eye, and it was wondered if at all the same could be replicated to suit our needs.
Each weekend was a shopping trip to one market or the other, and if not shopping, then dance practices, and if not either, then there were the trips to tailor or P that were scheduled.

Looking back, I am cherishing each and every day of the preparations and fights and the arguments. I think one of the best lessons that I learnt in all of the hoo hopla was that;

However hard you try, however much time you have in your hands, you are always running around at the last minute trying put the details together.  

I am back !!!

The sabbatical has been a little too long it seems.
But, life has changed.

There is this HUGE wedding post that is still due, and trust me I am working on it. And, I shall put it up soon.
I am in Mumbai and I have rejoined work. From the awkwardness of the first day to four days later, things are easing out a little at work. And, we are in midst of shifting houses. There is just too much happening and most of it, is a first for me, including the whole "being married".

The "Rings" (A lil teaser for you all ;))

And, the trend that the hubby and I follow, means that there was no "honeymoon period", even though there was a "Honeymoon". We are already having the arguments about the attitude adjustments and things to be done, how to be done.. etc. The good part being, that, we both are also following the rule of "Not going to bed angry" . 
Whilst we are taking each day at a time, I think, I have come realize that there is nobody else in this world who can make me feel more secure about me being me, and in the middle of the night, every night, I have woken up to find myself cuddled and in case I ain't, I take the initiative and go cuddle :).

Things do go awry, and we both are drawing strength from being with each other. Even though we argue like crazy, there is nothing in this world that can take away the feeling of getting up each morning in his arms.


I really hope that the festive month is treating you all fine and that spirit of Christmas is getting you all in the groove of welcoming the new year.
I am going to do the round up of the entire year and lessons that I have learnt.. and things that I want share with you.
Till, then- Merry Christmas, and please welcome me back :D 

Sweet November..

Sweetness, yet to come.
Sweetest, when I start the newest journey, with You..

November is here. So are the nerves. Soon, life shall change.
Of course, I will keep you all posted.. but after a nice long break.

See you on the other side of being married!