Friday, February 26, 2010

The best laid plans

What was the first question that we all learned to answer, when we were kids?

Beta, aapka naam kya hai? (What is your name?) Add to this statement the cute looks that you give to a one year old and you will know how this question was asked.
After this question, the next question that was often put our way was-

Oh, so cute, how old? 
Damn, lady, the kid doesn't know counting.

And, the third, most important question that you are asked from Day 1, you enter the school to God knows when-
Beta, what will you do when you grow up?
ofcourse, the 'grow up' changes with the age that you are in. It is often replaced with ' what next' , hello people, had we all known what next... or next is what (Samsung Ad) we would all have been the best astrologers in the world.
Sometimes the best laid plans in the world go awry. Could the people predict the outcome of so many things that were planned to the last detail... going wrong?
Such is life.
And, it is the THE the most difficult question in the world to answer- What next... Right now at this instant, I know nothing about what is next in my life.
My personal life as well as my professional life have gone for a toss, and in a way that I can't even think straight anymore. I know these are testing times for me, and well, it looks like I am not doing a great job at even trying to pass the test.

Five years ago, at this time, life was in a simpler perspective. But, a couple of months later, it changed, and there was a transformation. That was a transformation out of the blue, something that was unexpected.
But, today, I know, I know and I can feel it inside me that my best laid plans are in for a surprise from life. The perspectives are changing, and they are changing way toooooo fast for me to control. And, there is no choice, like there was five years back. The change was inevitable.

But now- today- I don't know what to do... I am lost.

7 comments:

Chanz said...

every single person on this earth goes through this phase.. And you remind me of how lost i was. I still am when I think of "what next"..

Ashish Surana said...

Just relax and be patient...try and work things out..i am sure you will find a way !! :)

Take Care

ani_aset said...

don worry you got company..if that gives you comfort that is ;)

The Bald Guy said...

You're stupid.

The Bald Guy said...

Your pro life is doing good. You got some award this year too like most years. Yadda Yadda Yah Yah.

The Bald Guy said...

And your personal life is doing great too. Relax. Take things one step at a time. One step.

And even if your personal life is a little down, don't be a moron and scream it out in public like immature kids.

Be dignified about it.

You laugh. The world laughs with you.

You cry. Alone.

Sakshi said...

@ Chanz
I know, but really am not kicked about this part of life.

@ Ashish
Thanks :)

@Ani
Thanks for all the comments on all the posts. And thanks for keeping me company, always helps to know that there is someone out there.

@TBG
Thanks.